It’s been long since I wrote anything in my blog and the reason is because I’ve been so busy with my life. Even so, I don’t see any outcome from all the things I have done as they seem to be meaningless. In school, I’m forced to take subjects which I do not wish to take and I also devote almost three quarter of my time on those useless subjects. I feel really irritated and I can’t describe the intensity of my irritation.
Anyway, I can’t do a thing about it so I’ll don’t see why do I need to elaborate my frustrations. All I know is I’m waiting for the time to come when I can finally drop those ridiculous subjects. Right now, I have a question which I am not sure how to answer and this question used to just pass through my mind without having me to think over about it. However, the case is different now as a friend of mind took this question as a measurement to test my ability of making important decision. Before that, I want to review the question once again, here’s how it goes:
Two people (not necessary people, can be any object that have some significance to you) who are equally dear to you (i.e parent or best friend or lover) were drowning in the water and you can ONLY save one of them and if you chose to save one the other will then definitely die…DUH…common sense. Therefore, under this crucial moment of decision making, who will you chose to save?
Regarding this question I chose to let both the people who are dear to me to drown. Surprised to hear my answer? When I think it over carefully, I am not sure if it is right to do so as my main reason to do so is to be free from the guilt of deciding for the life of the two people who are dear to me and also I want to be fair to both of them. Sadly, I only have the choice to save one and only one! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DECIDE!??
A friend of mine think that my choice is selfish as I have the ability to do something and yet I refuse and forgone the chance of changing someone’s fate. I am like a murderer as I did not even consider the value of their life and all I think about is how I feel if I chose to save one of them which will be the feeling of guilt as I will spend the rest of my life thinking “did I save the right person? Will the person who I did not save be mad at me? What right do I have to change the fate of others?”
Sigh…even till this stage, I still can’t figure out how to make that decision even though I have played this question over and over again in my mind. Other than that, my friend is right, I’m too emotional. The reason I’m saying he is right is because I realize that although I did admit to him I am a selfish person, I somehow over do it by saying I put the consideration of my own feelings first followed by the feelings of others. This statement is indeed not completely true as no matter how selfish I am, I am blessed with an equally powerful character which is able to balance my degree of selfishness that is compassion. Those who know me (my family) will know that my heart is softer than the words coming out from my mouth and I’ll never ever act selfishly if there’s the existence of love.
Seriously, looking back into the same question, I still don’t know how to react. Will I be affected by my selfish side when I’m forced to decide on the life of others or will I think rationally and make a quick decision to save one of them or will I be so devastated that I chose to drown with them? Am I such an indecisive person?
This question will remain unanswered for a time being but I know that someday, I’ll be able to figure it out! I did learn something important though from the discussion of this question with my friend ^^ He told me that no matter what I do in life, never react base on my emotions as I might have regrets. No one wants to leave this world with full of regrets!
Anyway, I can’t do a thing about it so I’ll don’t see why do I need to elaborate my frustrations. All I know is I’m waiting for the time to come when I can finally drop those ridiculous subjects. Right now, I have a question which I am not sure how to answer and this question used to just pass through my mind without having me to think over about it. However, the case is different now as a friend of mind took this question as a measurement to test my ability of making important decision. Before that, I want to review the question once again, here’s how it goes:
Two people (not necessary people, can be any object that have some significance to you) who are equally dear to you (i.e parent or best friend or lover) were drowning in the water and you can ONLY save one of them and if you chose to save one the other will then definitely die…DUH…common sense. Therefore, under this crucial moment of decision making, who will you chose to save?
Regarding this question I chose to let both the people who are dear to me to drown. Surprised to hear my answer? When I think it over carefully, I am not sure if it is right to do so as my main reason to do so is to be free from the guilt of deciding for the life of the two people who are dear to me and also I want to be fair to both of them. Sadly, I only have the choice to save one and only one! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DECIDE!??
A friend of mine think that my choice is selfish as I have the ability to do something and yet I refuse and forgone the chance of changing someone’s fate. I am like a murderer as I did not even consider the value of their life and all I think about is how I feel if I chose to save one of them which will be the feeling of guilt as I will spend the rest of my life thinking “did I save the right person? Will the person who I did not save be mad at me? What right do I have to change the fate of others?”
Sigh…even till this stage, I still can’t figure out how to make that decision even though I have played this question over and over again in my mind. Other than that, my friend is right, I’m too emotional. The reason I’m saying he is right is because I realize that although I did admit to him I am a selfish person, I somehow over do it by saying I put the consideration of my own feelings first followed by the feelings of others. This statement is indeed not completely true as no matter how selfish I am, I am blessed with an equally powerful character which is able to balance my degree of selfishness that is compassion. Those who know me (my family) will know that my heart is softer than the words coming out from my mouth and I’ll never ever act selfishly if there’s the existence of love.
Seriously, looking back into the same question, I still don’t know how to react. Will I be affected by my selfish side when I’m forced to decide on the life of others or will I think rationally and make a quick decision to save one of them or will I be so devastated that I chose to drown with them? Am I such an indecisive person?
This question will remain unanswered for a time being but I know that someday, I’ll be able to figure it out! I did learn something important though from the discussion of this question with my friend ^^ He told me that no matter what I do in life, never react base on my emotions as I might have regrets. No one wants to leave this world with full of regrets!
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^^ i'm pretty sure you will find your answer considering your own personal facts.
Life is a choice game, every choice you take in life takes you to a consequence... some choices are good anothers not so, but every choice holds the seed of regret...
Why i say this?, because when you take a choice you can't take another one, maybe the other one could be better, maybe not... but since you pick one you will never know wich way could took you if you would picked another.
So, someone who says that a person never will take emotionally decitions is right...partially...
sometimes most important decitions are taken...emotionally
Our whole life is full of regrets, small ones that we even not consider like regrets but they are...
You will find what i say in your own daily life, when someone buy a candy that is doesn't tasty and think "geez, probably i should buy chocolate next time"...
how could you call that?
^^ so our lifes are full of regrets, is just we have to learn from the regrets that really cares and just not to regret like dying for every small mistake we made...
Changing the topic, how are you? i hope fine...
do your best always!! even when people say you are wrong if you believe in what you are doing you always be right ^^
Truly yours
William Jeri.