I am not able to focus on my basic goals. I just want to be in a state of enjoyment all the time and it is getting to unhealthy levels. I managed to not play games for 24 hours, just 24 hours and when I started playing, I feel ecstatic. Is this addiction? Addiction is a brain disorder and it is defined as indulging oneself in the same activity even if it causes harm to oneself. I did achieve my goal to be promoted to legend 2 in the game but the amount of games I played last month was shocking, 600 plus games? Of course not all are score mode and some were duel battles that lasts around 2 minutes. Even so it is just unhealthy. There are a few things I need to do and complete within this month and perhaps stating it here will drive me to do them? 1. Graduation preparation: book flight tickets, hotel, plan my journey during graduation (zero motivation because I didn't want to spend money just for graduation but my parents insist I attend my graduation, I just don't feel the ex...
I often stray away from God because I am human, and as human, it is our nature to be lost in our own desires. Often, we only seek God or spiritual aid when we feel we are incapable of achieving our goals. I think I was my most spiritual self when I badly wanted to pass my examination and had prayed hard almost day and night for it. It is close to 10 months since I have passed and since then I have neglected those people who have been praying for me. I did not keep in touch, although my uncle still sends me daily good morning texts. I ignored the daily prayers my mom sent me because I feel I am at the point in my life where things are comfortable and static. However I dislike static, stable yes but what is the meaning of life if it is static? My spiritual friend, yes I shall call him that. The person who reconnected with me from the game have deleted his account again as he would love to focus on living life and suggested I did the same. I definitely could not entirely stop g...