A few weeks ago I met a patient with insomnia and he was under psychiatry follow-up. Somehow, the insomnia that an average person experiences is nothing compared to the particular patient's. I was shocked to know that he sleeps an average of 2-3 hours a day and with sleeping pills, it could probably be up to 5 hours. I find it hard to understand how a person could be so alert. It made me wonder if he is more accomplished by sleeping less and being able to stay awake to actually live life. I do see sleeping as a temporary death where you lose all awareness and suddenly fail to exist within the period of zero consciousness. Sometimes it makes me wonder if I will be missed while I am asleep or forgotten. The past few weeks have been a roller coaster and I somehow made it through the ride without having a heart attack. I learned about trust, perseverance, friendship, and resilience. Of all the things I learned, I love the part about trust. Out of feeling stressed, I somehow handled it
I plan to be away from the keyboard until I pass my exams. No more looking at shorts and no more writing my blog (maybe, but writing helps regulate my emotions). Every second is precious. I will sacrifice my wedding anniversary and probably treat myself to a piece of lamb chop from that expensive shop opposite my university. Then again, my partner says some animals with high levels of consciousness is not for consumption. That includes pork and beef. I don't eat beef but I do love pork. I forgot which one has higher consciousness is it sheep or goat? The one that hops a lot is supposed to have higher consciousness. Kind of ironic that he is accepting everything his teacher says but thankfully he isn't fanatic about it as he still eat a lot of pork and when I bring it up that isn't it not recommended and he was like "it isn't always". This is the reason why we are still humans and not Gods. ] Last night I entertained myself with this math question ABCDx4 = DBCA