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好神奇

 今天做的决定我有好好记在脑里。 醒来时就马上想想今天要做的事。 其实醒来时发现自己没穿衣服然后睡衣是在床旁边。 我明明记得我是穿着衣服睡觉的。 也许太困了,自己把衣服脱了也不记得了,真的没有任何的意识。 昨晚就是没开空调睡觉然后觉得有点冷盖好了被子,可能半夜有点热身体自己决定不穿衣服。 

一大早弟弟煮了蒜米炒饭让我带个便当上班。 里面还加了一块鸡肉,也是昨晚我吃不完的炸鸡。 幸亏有弟弟给了我个好的开始因为我去上班时就觉得有点不开心因为有人把车停在我的位置。 我会不开心是因为之前我没有车位时有人撞了我的车也没给我个交代让我心疼。 所以自从有了自己的车位我就是想天天都是在自己车位停车。 这样我就能降低别人撞了我的车而不给我任何交代的风险因为我认识左边和右边的车主。 见到我的同事我就吐槽了少过一分钟然后马上说 “没关系, 我的今天重启一次,就从现在开始!”。

我真的不想带负面情绪去开始我值班的一天。 我的顾问竟然来帮助我,让我事事都顺利,真的很感动。 虽然今天给的三餐都不好吃,我带的便当解决了这个问题也同时让我“减肥” 因为我只吃了我自己家里准备的那一餐。

记得吗我说过了今天不能想你了? 我真的有努力的不去想你。可是很神奇的你突然私信我,问我这里有没有台风。我看见手机里的提示写着你的名字,很自然的微笑了也感到开心。 哎~我就失败了,不想你你就出现! 我也借了个机会和你说我前几天都有看到你上游戏可是没有打个招呼因为我不想打扰你做任务。 我觉得我必须解释因为我不要你以为我对你冷漠。 今天你约我玩游戏可是很可惜我值班。 我当然也让你知道我这个月是很希望能和你一起玩。 你说月中后都会开始忙了, 虽然如此我还是希望我们有机会一起玩因为这是我最想要的礼物。 

像平时一样你又逗我开心了。 我和你说有了钱会有更多选择权,你和我说有了钱会有更多拒绝权。 我也第一次听到这另一个说法但是的确是个真实的事。 我们也聊了晚霞,月亮和太阳带来的感觉。 最好笑是看太阳的感觉。 

就这样你很神奇的出现,陪了我聊天。 间隔冷漠是我一直都做不了的事,我好希望下一次的对话会在不久的未来。 我还是会努力不想你因为我不想有苦苦的感觉。其实刚才对话我竟然把尴尬的事和你说,可能我不因该说给你听。可是你就是让我感觉很舒服很有安全感,是我可以信任的人。 

我可別轻易的相信你。谢啦,今天我依然没想你因为你把我对你的相思通过一个简讯给解了。 

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