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Realization

I realise I have change a lot in my thinking throughout my growing process as I found another treasure of mine - an essay written in January 2002 during my Malay lesson. Here's a traslation of the essay :

Title : Imagine how your life would be when you hit 35

"Amy, where's my breakfast?" Where on earth is my maid? For the past 10 minutes I have been calling her to bring my breakfast for me. However, untill now she is no where to be seen. This is how my life is, having a big house, a luxurious car and a maid.

I work as a fashion designer with a big reputation. Therefore, I am able to lead a luxurious lifestyle. In my house, there's only 2 people - my maid, Amy and I. So, the environment in my house is absolutely quiet except during the begining of every month as I will be holding a feast at my house whereby all my close friends are invited.

I also have a boyfriend which I have known for 2 years. Although I am 35, I am still not ready to start a family. I like my life the way it is now as I can live in freedom and peace. I do not need to get headaches thinking about family related matters and I will just have to think about work related matters.

Everyday I will drive my white BMW to work and return home with a cheerful feeling after working for 8 to 10 hours. I love my job even though it can be quite challenging sometimes. After a long days work, I love to go home and take a hot shower while listening to music that soothes my nerves. My bathroom is specially modified to suit my taste therefore I like it very much.

As for my bedroom, the walls will be made out of sound proof material so that I will not feel disturbed by irritating noises when I am sleeping. This way, I do not need to get angry and scold the person who is responsible for the noise. Every night I will sleep in a peaceful and harmonious environment. I feel so lucky.

Okie, the end. I feel funny to reread the things I wrote in the past ^^

Comments

Florence said…
Really sounds like a child's mind, I didn't know that you were that cute, haha~~
Crazygtown31 said…
hahax:)

this is a really cute post^^. i would say that i've dream of it before. i even wrote that in my SPM english continuos writing essay. in my dream house, i would have a band room, a studio, a huge tropical fish aquarium, expensive hi-fi system, comfy lounge area, a mini bar, a wine stock room, gym room, basketball court, my own basketball court, my private suite with enjoining spa, sauna, and jacuzzi room, space-priced limos in my front yard and perhaps a car showroom in my garage. On top of these is a 8-lane bowling alley in my basement. lols. it's wonderful to daydream sumtimes.

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