I dislike asking for help or depending on others because no one in this world is dependable. Even if there is, it is like a unicorn - rare (no, non-existent). So 2024 has begun and the prediction is that I will need to be careful with finances just 3 days into 2024 I am overseeing expenditures that are beyond my capacity. I felt rather disappointed that my upcoming trip to the most expensive country in Southeast Asia would cost me more than 1 month's salary because I didn't have a place to stay. The only reason I made the decision to attend the conference there was because I found a free place to lodge and I had already planned to wrap a red packet as a show of gratitude to the host. I think people absent-mindedly say "yes" to people never knowing how their last-minute change of offer would impact on others. I think I don't have a right to be angry as I do not know the person at all (my mom knows her) and I am asking for a favor. I just felt a little mad at myself because I had specifically told a friend that I would only go for the conference if I didn't have to pay for lodging resulting in my friend not registering for the conference as she had no one to share the hotel fees with. I guess serves me right for wanting to cut costs and in the end I am having to bear more costs and I have no companion for my trip.
I proceed to soothe my emotions by telling myself that well it is okay I will just take it as a staycation but it is so hard to convince myself as I do not think spending that amount in a country just next door is worth it. I was hoping my relative would just offer me the couch but well that will not happen. So now I am contemplating whether should I just cancel the whole trip and lose about 1300 of my local currency or proceed and probably spend another additional 7000-8000. The other option was Airbnb but it is not cheap and it is so far from the venue and I need to travel an hour by train. Seriously I think people who live there practically inhale money and exhale money as their cost of living is just mind-blowing. The cheaper hotel seems to be situated in their red-light town and I am not very keen to stay in a red-light town given that I am already feeling apprehensive about this whole trip.
Should I go or should I not go? The timing is pretty bad too as it is the peak season and everything will be marked up. 7000-8000 could be spent on other stuff like buying USDT or just not spending it for anything and keeping it to pay for 2 months' worth of mortgage. This is also the reason why I feel I need to buck up and earn more. If money wasn't a problem, I would be unfazed by the change of plans and would just proceed to book a midrange hotel without even needing to scroll so long and type keywords like "cheapest", "affordable", and "reasonable". A colleague suggested that I stay at the border and travel daily and I think that is a very bad idea because time wasted is money wasted. I am glad I have not purchased my return flight and could still consider canceling the whole plan. My loved ones offered to pay for my lodging but the point is it is not entirely about the money but whether I am willing to spend such amounts on something that is not worth that amount. I feel sorry for the youths there, unless they are doing super well, probably all their lives they would be living in tiny homes with limited space because space is so precious there. Besides I'm not sure if they can have big dogs as pets in their condominium/apartments. I think I would never trade my space just to live in a clean, secure, uncorrupted, orderly society.
Maybe I should just observe for price drops and decide after Chinese New Year, perhaps a better solution would pop out. Moreover, I am anticipating another plandemic to be launched soon. It was absolutely annoying when people started being absent from work for 5 days for home quarantine. The CONvid vaccine did not work if people still need to be quarantined and still get infected. I also decided that if anyone forced vaccination on me again, I would fight to the end this time. The last time I was threatened that disciplinary action could be taken for not taking that poison shot and also I was told that if I am not vaccinated I cannot take my exams - this violates free will and consent. It is a shame because the medical professionals are condoning such behavior. Thanks to the plandemic I have not much passion to continue being in the medical profession in the long run because I see the evil side of medicine and phamaceutical companies. I do not want to be part of their plans and advocate for things that have a lack of research. I just hope the pulmonary embolisms and myocardial infarctions that is getting so common at younger ages are not because of that forced shot.
So the conclusion is I will push matters regarding the trip out of my mind for now until mid-February. Hope it is not too late by then to decide.
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