Sweetie's World

Today I am really up for alcohol though I don't really know how to drink except for the tonic wine I take occasionally which does not even amount to a quarter of a cup. Anyway, I love the idea of getting drunk especially now cause I feel I am drown in a whirlpool of emotions and there's nothing better than some alcohol perhaps *wink Anyway here's a quote which I have seen in my uncle's house in year 2000 and since then I never once forget this quote. In fact, as soon as I am given allowance to drink all that I want which is probably when I get my own paycheck, I am going to make this quote my 3rd principle in life...1st and 2nd principle has to be something else more important than drinking *stick my tongue out. (so immature I know) "When we drink, we get drunk. When we get drunk, we fall asleep. When we fall asleep, we commit no sin. When we commit no sin, we go to heaven. Sooooo, let's all get drunk and go to heaven!" -- Brian O'Rourke Ahh~ I just l...

I realise that no matter how angry I am, I usually will refrain from saying things which I don't mean to say. However, there are also times where there's too much of pent-up anger inside of me which causes a massive eruption and the consequence is almost fatal. Therefore, the topic which interest me lately is Anger Management. The truth is I just had some nasty squable with my little brother, yes, my little-rebellious-testosterone overdosed-teenage-brother. Gosh, am I mad ~ Anyway, I always think that words can do more damage than you can ever imagine and that's why you must always pick carefully what to say even if you are angry. I would like to be a person who is always calm and free from any anger. Besides, being angry does not do any good to your health at all *wink By the way, to release any pent-up anger (just to make sure I am really angry no more *giggles) I googled "anger management" and oh-my~ it was really helpful! next time you get angry, you might wan...

Every cloud has a silver lining, The End has brought a new Beginning for me. Because... through The End, I have learn more about securing a new Beginning, through The End, I learn to see the reason behind every words spoken, through The End, I know that nothing can be judge by it's surface, through The End, I found myself to have grown into a matured young adult, through The End, I understand the predicament that he is facing, through The End, I am sure that my love is one of which is unconditional, through The End, I finally seeked what I have long been seeking for. And therefore, tell me how am I suppose to mourn for our ending?

When I was young, I love mixing words together and making them rhyme, it's part of my hobby and I can spend endless time scribbling away verses that rhymes. I even had a dream of publishing a whole book of poem someday. Sadly, I never discover the depths of my potential in creative writing 'cause I took this wonderful gift for granted. I do hope someday I still can write a decent poem like I used to *Smile* A part of me has gone For my poems have left me alone Every verse cutting our bond I’m falling fast to hit ground When my poems no longer rhymes I’m just another pitiful slime Gliding and slipping out of my dream Into a fit of sorrowful screams For words are sharper than the knife And my poem is my life So don’t you dare say I’m naïve Because my poem is my life! -2005-

This poem is dedicated to all the kids out there who are pressured by exams. The time has come again, for all to strife in pain, lost energy can't be regain, faces were pale and plain. Sleepless nights and candle lights, burning away all our might, just before the sky is bright, working endlessly through the dark night. From dusk till dawn, we seem to yawn, as lullabies weave a drowsy sound, threatening us to lie down. I'm sick of this insanity, the craziness I face, where is the humanity, as lost childhood I trace. Exam, tests, marks and grades, productiveness and winning, it is all that ever counts, whereas other stuff had no meaning. Give me back my life! A life that a child deserve. Take away the unwanted pressure, the tiredness I have preserved. -2005-

Dear Girl, Please understand that there are times where I want to be alone. I have always shown interest in you and just because I don’t show it, it doesn’t mean my feelings towards you are any different from the past. If I can let you see what’s inside my heart then you’d probably understand. It’s just so hard for me to open up my feelings and spill my heart out. Do understand that it's my nature to be quiet when I'm down. Besides, Things do change and people do change according to their environment. I just hope you could compromise that I can’t be loving all the time. Even so, it does not mean I don’t love you anymore. I am sorry for being cold towards you, I really didn’t mean to. Sometimes I feel like there’s some problem inside of me which I cannot resolved. That is the reason why I need to be alone sometimes. I never have the slightest thought of pushing you away. Sometime I do wonder should I just walk away. I don’t want to see the girl I love hurting and it feels like ...

Dear guy, I can no longer understand you. You are not the same. The time you showed interest in me is long-forgotten. When you are trying to get my attention, you treated me so sweet. You used words like “you are the only girl I love”, “you are the one I need, you are the one I’ll keep for all time”, “I love you”. It feels like everything’s a lie for me now. Now, you probably have got to your senses and decided you don’t love me that much. I feel rather frustrated how unfair you can be towards me. Sometimes it feels that the person which I thought you were did not exist. Before, my feelings came first; now, you hardly care about my feelings. When you are down, you just don’t bother to care for me. And it has become a routine for you to be down 24/7. You were never like this when I know you for the first 3 months plus. I think I should leave. I have always thought this love can live on. But, I’m wrong. I don’t want to feel hurt or cheated anymore. All the words of reassurance you gave m...