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The Blue Whisper

Today I decided to watch the last few episodes of The Blue Whisperer, a Chinese drama that I have wanted to finish in 2022 but seems to have dragged on until now. The only reason I watch it is because it has Dilreba Dilmurat in it. I think she is the most perfectly created human being and is blessed with many creative talents such as acting, dancing, and advertising. I had to pause watching episode 41 after watching episode 40 as it made me teary and before I could regulate my emotions I started to cry uncontrollably. The last I felt immense heartache was a year ago and looking back I just feel that time passes so fast and I had spent quite a significant amount of time to free my heart. In the end, the whole theme was about people falling in love and sacrificing themselves in the name of duty and altruism, leaving their loved ones alone. This is what I could conclude so far but I have yet to watch the last episode and I am hoping the ending will be a happy one since in these fantasy dramas the deceased could be resurrected. 


I think the actor Ren Jia Lun is also very pleasant looking and he nailed the innocent, kind-hearted role that he played in the drama. However, I think the person who suffered the most in the entire drama would be the role of Lin Hao Qing, acted by Xiao Shun Yao. Despite him being a support role and not the main role, his entire life depicted in the drama was a series of unfortunate events. He had to put up an act to continue living and he went to great lengths to protect the person he loved although knowing his love is not reciprocated. He suffered a lot and only his loyal subordinate sees and understands his suffering. I don't think in this world there is a character such as Lin Hao Qing. Of course, I could be wrong since I'm not sure what is he going to do next since he is under the influence of the evil fairy Shun De. Even so, if he were to do something to harm the one he loves, it is not his doing as he is under the control of the evil spirits cast by Shun De. 


I don't have much time to watch drama but instead of watching the first few episodes and last few episodes to make my assumption of the whole drama, I watch it at x1.5 speed. I know the speed would affect the experience as I felt different feelings whenever I played my husband's voice message at different speeds although he was saying the same thing. So I would say this drama is a great success as despite watching it at an increased speed, I was still able to feel the heartache and sadness that I believe the director wanted the audience to feel. Lucky for me, writing helps as I no longer feel teary now. 


Okay, I am really curious about the ending and I think I should finish it before I head out for my run today. Oh, I need to make some minor amendments to my thesis write-up and I hope this is the last amendment because I want to get it printed out and submitted by this month as a qualifying ticket to sit the final exam. Now, don't cry, it is just a fantasy drama! 

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