Sweetie's World

Today was a pleasant day at work as it started off with the mortality meeting being postponed. I usually do not fancy starting my day discussing about mortalities and I think it would be best to discuss it during midday or near the end of the day. The good thing about being in a learning environment is that superiors here are more professional and rarely blames anyone whenever an adverse event occurs but they ensure that it is being discussed within a short time frame from the incident to ensure everyone learns from it. However there will still be one or two superior who loves finding fault and adopt the blame culture. sometimes they do not intend to blame but their choice of words can be quite demotivating. Instead of saying "you should have" I think saying "in the event of such situation, the best action would be". It is the same message but it makes the person listening feel much better as the second sentence is neutral. Maybe I am too sensitive but I felt annoye...

I just saw a quote a few days back - "You may lend yourself to others but never give yourself to anyone". I find it inspiring and it serve as a reminder that I should always look at my own needs first before deciding to do any acts of kindness. However I find it rather hard to reject anyone who has a valid reason and if I am aware that I am within the capacity to help, despite being at a slight disadvantage, I would still offer my help. I am still learning on how to assess the situation and do the right thing for the best of everyone, including me. I recalled back in university, the English proficiency exams was done in groups of 4 and we were being assigned randomly. I realize one of the member was not performing well so when the examiner asked us to wrap up, I gave her the chance of speaking even though I know I could do a better job. I'm not sure if it was the right move because it did pull the group marks down but at least it probably improved her score. I think I did...

Tonight the weather is rather cold and I was feeling hungrier than usual. I was feeling a little guilty to eat as I did not run for a week due to the rainy weather and busy schedule. I somehow passed through my week completing all relevant task and had catch up doing some overdue work such as my logbook. I guess documentation is my most dreaded tasks and if I could hire a personal assistant to do that for me, I would. Despite not exercising, I was rather thankful when my friend invited me to dinner as I am craving for some freshly cooked chinese cusine. When my friend picked me up, I noticed he brought another friend along and did not introduce us and I did not bother to introduce myself too as they seem to be talking non stop regarding gas stations and benefits of applying some sort of card. I did not feel awkward but I felt a little left out initially until suddenly the new person started to ask me how did I find the place I am renting and how much was the rent. So without any introd...

I have officially closed a beautiful chapter of my life. Despite some of the things that I wish did not happened, I choose to remember the things that were right, the things that were pure, the things that makes me smile whenever I recall them. I have also begun to forgive myself by my daily recitation of the ho'oponopono. Words are indeed powerful and it was your words that had pulled the golden string of my heart. I find subtle changes in my life when I started to forgive myself. First of all, I feel I could focus better on what is important, secondly I no longer feel depressed and lack of energy and lastly but most importantly, I feel more present and mindful. Letting go is really so important although it was so hard and soul shattering. Now I understand why my friend had given me "pheonix" as a nickname during the difficult times in my life. If you observe the life cycle of a pheonix, it shows that these mythical creatures build their grave and perish in flames and th...

“When two people decides to get a divorce, it isn’t a sign that they “don’t understand” one other, but a sign that they have, at least, begun to.” - Helen Rowland People always say marriage is a lot of hard work and it isn’t easy yet many of us still decide to get married. I never knew how heavy the responsibility is to have a ring placed on my ring finger and how much it changes me as a person. I was afraid of getting married because I was afraid of the possibility of having a divorce. I often thought that as long as I do not get married, there will never be a possibility for a divorce. The reason I am afraid of divorce stems from my personal believes that a woman’s capability is measured by how well she can manage her household. Perhaps it is very traditional and old fashioned but I do think that there’s a reason why Mother Nature is called “mother” instead of “father” because women play a better role in nurturing, giving and caring. Women rely more on their emotions and intuition an...

Today I feel like writing a letter to him because I miss him towards the end of my day and it is without a reason. So here it goes:  Hey, today I suddenly miss you a lot and I look back at our conversations which is now buried under a list of channels which are quite redundant. It was wonderful and sweet to reminisce the way we interacted and I smiled at most of the contents. The last photo of you was the one in the white shirt and ripped jeans and you looked really handsome and charming. Of course I clicked onto your profile wondering if you have any new photos uploaded or if there's any new status. I found that the hearts in my favorite colors were no longer there and it has revert back to the original. It is good and it reminded me of the time when I first got to know you, that was your status. I'm glad that you are removing traces of me in your life because I always believe that the block you have in getting your dream relationship is because you keep too much of the past m...

 Do you believe in Feng Shui? I do believe in it and I gave myself a chance to learn by attending a 3day free Feng Shui course online to have a better understanding. Despite the course being free, it does provide a lot of insight and value. The master was very charismatic and the main selling point for his methods is the ability to be in synchrony with the current way of living. He debunked many old-fashioned methods that had no proper basis and highlighted that Feng Shui is not about superstition. I used to feel a slight disappointment towards those who are too deeply involved in such believes because I did not understand the basis of it and it had no logic to it. However, what the mind does not know, the eyes will not see and the heart will never accept. I had a lot of doubts when I was dating my other half because his background involves believing in these things that I often thought were non-scientific and silly. I also often tell him if the Feng shui master is able to use Feng...