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失去自由

 我真的在自己的布洛克没有发表意见的自由了吗?这也让我学习有些东西只要一个人知道了,再也不能像以前那样,想写啥就写啥,自己开心就好。 我知道布洛克能锁起来,可是我以为自己一些经验能让陌生人心情低落时看了我的经验后,可能心情会更好,或不会再自责。 我真的很累了,我和他的事带了很多的伤悲和委屈, 我真的不想和他有任何的来往了。当初就是一直担心他,同情他,我才下不了手和他断绝联系。后来是他决定断绝来往,我才能让他“走”。 

你给我看好, 我不再是那个会为你打气,鼓励你,给你精神上支持的朋友了。 我们也跨界了太多次,对我而言,暧昧是很大的罪因为我结婚了。可是对你来说,你只不过那时对我有好感,也没对不起任何人。而我,伤害了我的老公。几天前收到你的电邮,真的很惊讶。刚巧我也忙着搬家,我那时不懂该如何处理你这个电邮。

首先,我是不会再和你有任何来往,因为是你当初说不能做朋友,我也不可能把我的热脸贴到你的冷屁股。 第二,我对你没有任何的责任,自己是成年人了,若觉得自己不够成功,那就自己努力做好自己。第三,我真的不想再把你这个人在我另一半面前提了。 我知道有些事我可以不说可是我会觉得不舒服。就是因为没有和另一半说,我昨晚发了噩梦。 我梦见我和另一半去了你的国家,可是奇怪的是我和另一半说我会在朋友的家过夜(也就是你的家)。 我觉得梦很奇怪因为若他知道是你,他肯定不会让我去。我到了你的家,家里没人可是我却进到你房间里,就在那边等着你。当你到了,你也没有表情,还和我说我不能在你家过夜因为有亲戚来拜访。 我想在你家过夜因为我想好好和你说说话,好好把我们这份缘给断了一干二净!可是我也觉得自己很不合逻辑,怎么到你家过夜? 

没想过在梦里的你真的把我冷落,我也开始有点慌因为我没有订酒店,也没做好心理准备我没地方住(梦里的我也太紧张了吧,其实有很多办法的)。我打给另一半,另一半却订了单人床,准备睡觉了。 我觉得这个梦也显示了我潜意识里描述了你不是一个可靠的人。 当初你说过如果我在你的国家遇到任何危险要求助还是能找你,可是你也是把我给拉黑的那个人。 

你能不要再关注我的布洛克吗?我知道你喜欢收集东西,包括感觉。 你得记得,现在我和你只是陌生人。我们所经历的过去都是很大的错,把那些日子给忘了,因为记得也带不了任何正能量。你醒醒好吗? 别再和我有任何来往,也别再看我的布洛克。 我真的对你没有任何感觉 - 没有善意,也没有恶意。 只希望我们从彼此的生活中消失。

你一个电邮给我添了不少的烦恼。 真的,饶了我吧。


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