A tragedy took place a few months back. Our beloved golden retriever passed away at a young age. She was only 5 years old on 23rd January this year, and we were just saying how she gave us 5 beautiful years. I really thought we could have another 5 beautiful years or more. However I am used to deaths and parting and goodbyes so I know I can overcome the emptiness I feel and time heals. Sadly I couldn't say the same for my brother and his wife because they spent all their time with her at home and she is part of them. Both of them work from home everyday and the joy of being at home mainly revolves around Ginger their beloved pet/ daughter. Yup, both of them treated her as their baby daughter as they do not have any children and I think Ginger have the best life a pet could ever have.
I think I will never have a pet ever again after losing 3 pets in a span of 1 year. However I could not deny that pets bring a lot of joy and comfort and perhaps the price of losing them is not comparable to the happiness they bring. Maybe someday I will have my own pet again but for the next 5 years I don't think it will happen.
I just got back from Taiwan recently and I really love this country so much, even more than Singapore. It was my first overseas trip after Convid and also my first trip with my husband. It was a well spent 8days despite having a few dispute with my husband. The journey made me realize he will never be able to love me the way I want to be love and we will never have a happy marriage because he is just not invested in our relationship. I have tried on multiple occasion to communicate but it does not work at all. I don't think he will ever change for the better because it's been 3 years plus and I don't see any improvement in our lives as a couple. I did improve as an individual but as a couple we achieved nothing. Hiking up mount Kinabalu together is a momentary achievement and I am looking for long term achievements.
Divorce is just not in the picture yet as it does not bring any of us more benefit. I'm not planning to have a relationship anymore if I do get a divorce because I realize being single is much better than being attached. I rather have a pet than have another human being breaking my heart.
I know I am not happy when an overseas trip resulted in me crying 3 out of the 8 days. I shall focus more on the things I need to do this month and also talk about my Taiwan trip more in my future post. I really can't get over the country and would like to visit again. Yang Ming Shan is so awesome and it is my wish to see the place again in different seasons.
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