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 I did it! I did a percutaneous tracheostomy without any complications and had a great time learning 2 different techniques and familiarizing myself with the ultrasound view of the tracheal rings. I think despite being busy, having procedures to do makes me extra happy at work. Almost did interscalene block but the patient refused. Toward the end of the day, things got a little out of hand as I had to face an angry shouting surgeon and also bullying at work. I am not sure how to solve the matter of bullying and have discussed it with the "victim" regarding some options available. As for the shouting surgeon, I felt gleeful that I could tell it to his face to "stop shouting" in a calm and composed manner. I know asking him to "stop shouting" would only fluster him more but that was my actual motive. Academically he may be in a high position but the scenario just now was like an adult telling a child to "stop shouting". Maybe he has some undiagnosed autism which made him behave in such an entitled manner but well, I don't care, don't shout at me. 

On the other hand, I know I am getting the cold shoulder from someone and I am okay with it. The person's nickname really suits him now, as all I could think of is him being "Elsa" from frozen throwing blizzards at me. If we were Pokemons, I would say that his attack is "Very Effective" because it does send chills into my soul. Oh well, whatever is happening is predictable and I should just face it with a pinch of salt. Nevertheless, the emotions stirring in me inspired me to write the following: 

*Blank* 

I guess it is not meant to be posted here. I wrote a poem on my notepad and somehow my laptop switched off as it was not plugged in and I lost the whole piece. I do not think I would like to recall what I wrote for now. I think I am just feeling a little exhausted. 

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