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 昨天你没有回复我但是我想我们说过我们的友情是没有约束的。也许你也不想讨论我问的问题,也许你想休息。后来我看你上线玩游戏可是已经有组了所以没有打扰。真没想过我们尽然遇到了但是你是敌方,我也输给你了。其实我想和你玩所以游戏里你是对手我觉得一点都不好玩。今早我发现你整个晚上没有让庄园里的小鸡睡觉我就觉得你一定没有想起我,因为如果你有想起我,你一定会让小鸡去睡觉。我这个逻辑会幼稚吗?当我想着你没想我的时候,突然你发个简讯给我让我看看你小鸡的日记因为里面是写着好友(也就是我)投喂了你的小鸡好多次。

上班时我又突然想起你,你又来个简讯,我想我真的别想你好了因为我开始会对你没有让小鸡回屋子睡觉的事感到非常在意。下班后我尝试换位思考,如果我是单身的然后有个已婚的男人对我特别好特别体贴还有很常送礼物给红包,我到底会有什么感受呢? 我想我就会觉得他再好也是别人的老公。我想我能理解为什么老师不能对我热情或常常联络因为我是别人的老婆。那天看了一个视频说喜欢就喜欢,不需要去在意有没有结果或者对方在我们生活中有没有个适合的身份/名分。 反正我不会伤我的老公同时我也承认我喜欢和老师聊天但是老师不是我的理想伴侣因为他也说过他是固执的人。 也许我们大家都是固执的所以同一个能量互相吸引成为朋友。 

现在晚上了你还是没让你的小鸡睡觉还让他饿着, 我已经没有饲料能喂他吃了。 我今晚喝了一点法国郎酒因为我相信喝了一点酒我能不生病…这是没有根据的可能我醉了, 晚安。 

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