As long as we never meet, we will always be able to keep our friendship. Yes, this is the conclusion I have made. I think it would be pretty awkward to meet. Our cultures are slightly different, and it would be really daunting to communicate in real life. At least with distance apart and with the aid of the internet, I could still Google certain words he say which I do not understand. Example I learned a few words like 凉飕飕，一语成谶， 又双叒叕 and many more. It is really fun learning and talking to him but I think it is because I have the time to slowly learn and digest the words I learn. Our conversation would be dysfunctional if we were to meet and speak, and I don't want to feel less coherent.
Half a year, and I have used up the 1000 yuan I topped up in my WeChat wallet. I stopped myself from topping up so that I would not have the impulse to send him red packets. I know my capacity and limitations. Besides, I do not want him to feel like I am paying him to be my friend. That really is pathetic. It takes about 40MYR per month to be VIP on GBM and 6 months is 240MYR. So yup, I promise myself not to send him anymore until his birthday which will be at the end of the year. However, I found out that I could still send him gifts; those gifts on WeChat can be purchased with my debit card unlike WeChat wallet top-ups, which require me to transfer to someone living in China and then transfer back to me into my WeChat wallet (It is just too much work and risk of not getting whatever I transferred). I thought that while he is on the move, it would be hard to have a fixed address to send him gifts but from our conversation, I found out it is possible. China's delivery services is just too advanced and convenient!
I realize our thinking is quite different. I love adventure, but I also want stability like an invisible safety net that will always be there if I were to fall. His future plans include selling off his one and only family home purchasing a camper van, and go travelling around the world. It does sound like a good plan, but is it sustainable? I did not go into the conversation of sustainability as he might not be what he is. So far he portray himself as someone from a modest income group. Or am I being brainwashed by elites? Thinking that I will need to follow a certain pattern in life - earn sufficient money to have more choices in life. He told me life is beyond working and there is so much to see in this world. Have I become a slave to money? Regardless, I do feel much secure having a career and income. It gives me more autonomy in everything I do and I am still wondering what other legal ways can I make more.
I am still not winning in life yet because I am using too much of my time working. Unlike my Singaporean rich friend who is a millionaire at his late 20s. He seems to have all the time in the world and often show me videos of his games in GunBound M, and whenever he invited me to play my answer is always "can't I need to work". Without knowing I have become such a boring person. How do I fix this?
It's almost 10am now and thanks to the idea of wanting to sleep in I have not done anything meaningful today while he have started his journey to another town. Other than having breakfast and listening to music, I have yet to do anything of value. So here's my list for today:
1) Jog 5km (evening)
2) complete my sharing slides for my juniors as a lot of them are furthering their studies
3) complete the teaching slides for the nurses
4) clean up my email inbox and also my phone storage (I am running out of storage!)
5) make roasted pumpkin for dinner (just pop the pumpkin into the oven）
6) play GunboundM (Love this activity but it is not going to benefit me much other than causing some dopamine surge)
I wonder what happened to my Brazilian friend, he told me he is not doing good and suddenly he disappeared. I hope all is well with him.
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