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520！

 今天是5月20日，很多人都把今天当作“我爱你”的节日。也算是一种情人节。 微信今天还能发520金额的红包。我好想给老师转个520但是我也无法自己充值所以只能给他个5.20的红包。 也没什么特别意思，就是想带一点仪式感给他，也想让他知道我在乎他，我关心他。 

很喜欢这句话“我爱你与你无关”。也许这就是我对他的感觉。很想继续爱也不希望他会有同样的感受。 我知道他没有把我放在心上，问他是否记得去年问了我到底有没有庆祝520，他说他不记得了。 和他聊天我也知道他有好多聊天对象，当然不能记得和我说过的话。 我知道他不相信生肖/星座/那些测试性格的题目但是我觉得可能我们都是水性的星座所以很好聊。 

其实今天我想和他说晚安， 可是没机会因为他也没答复我最后的问题。可能他睡觉了，就不打扰了。 晚安。 

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