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幸好有你

 今天我认识了一对来自山东的夫妇,他们是在我大学的博士生。 我一直都想和中国人交朋友因为我很喜欢中国文化,而且他们的国家有很多美丽的风景和好吃的菜肴。 我知道让病人或病人家属加我在Whatsapp是不专业的举动可是他们要求加我是因为我们能互相沟通。我也同情他们人在国外而且又刚好来到一个华人偏少的医院。 我想,我现在工作的地方大约95%的医务人员都是不会用华语沟通。 别说整个医院,就连我麻醉部门里的上师只有一个印度人,其他都是马来人,没有华人。 尽然我自己的丈夫在国内动手术和住院时都让我感到很紧张,我觉得外国人遇到沟通问题又得接收治疗心里一定会更担心更难过。 所以我决定把“专业”放一边,把自己的电话号码给了病人的太太。我也不敢说 ”我们交个朋友吧“ 因为感觉好像很不合适,可是我希望如果有一天能在不同的场合遇见我想和他们交个朋友。 

我真的很感恩我爸爸坚持让我读华校,让我认识汉语。有时有点内疚没好好学习,因为我的汉语水平不是很高,而且文言文更别说了,我根本看不懂。我很欣赏可以用华文写出优美句子的人,中学时我很喜欢诗歌朗诵,成语,谚语,格言和文言文。当时我背书多过读书所以现在我写的东西听起来好像没接收过华文教育 (华文老师,真对不起!)我也想起了中国历史老师说过的”背多分“, 就是死背而获取很多分, 我中国历史当初是拿一百分可是现在再考我的话我连朝代的次序也搞糊涂了。希望现代的教育方式有更改,别再鼓励学生读死书,要激发他们的思考和创意能力,这样才能栽培出文笔好的人才。 

我丈夫还常常嘲笑我是个独中毕业生可是华语水准尽然比不过他,而且我不会繁体字,只会简体字。我不介意他笑我因为我英语比他好所以我们都是互相嘲笑互相学习。 提起丈夫我就想念他了! 不懂我上师怎么安排时间表,我这个周末值班下个周末又值班,我想逃到金马轮都没机会。 宝贝老公,我现在的心情就像这首一样!真的不是因为寂寞才想你,就是因为想你才寂寞!我还是不是很喜欢”老公“,”老婆“这些称号因为有个“老”字,感觉好像叫多了会变老。我还是喜欢“宝贝”可是有时觉得“老公”或“老婆”很顺口很亲切。哦,我刚查了百度,现在我懂了”老公“和”老婆“的由来,原来”老“是代表亲昵及尊敬, 这样就让我改观啦。 多么希望我的宝贝老公能突然出现在我眼前,可是我知道他忙,我也不想他一个人开远途车浪费精力和时间为了见我一面。 未来我们的距离会更远,真希望在我还没回沙巴前能多见面。

好啦,不写了,今天最美好的事就是病人说了一句”幸好有你,谢谢你“。

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