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三生三幸

 今天又一直重复播放这首歌,也把歌献给老公听,感觉歌词很浪漫。其实遇见了各种各样的人,感觉老公还是最好的,因为他是个心胸广阔的人,和他在一起我一直都在成长。可是最近老公一直叫我别吃这个别吃那个,得吃有生命力的食物比如新鲜的水果和蔬菜或新鲜鸡肉,绵羊肉。他说不能吃猪肉或山羊肉因为他们的意识强,吃了对我们不好。我还是觉得有时候他的老师教他的东西他也太认真的把一切都惦记在心里,然后很多时候都会跟随老师的话。我其实有点担心,感觉他没有自己的主见,每次都受老师的影响。虽然这是件小事,可是我对这种事就是特别敏感,我觉得别人说的我们参考就好,也未必得所有东西都要去跟从。 

今晚和嫌弃我太菜的网友聊了几句,他也是让我自我反省的人,同时也是鼓励我的人。 真没想过他是一个消极的人,却又会把一丝丝的希望带给别人。从他几句话我就觉得他不是个幸福快乐的人,过后他自己也说幸福快乐是不降临他身上的,我听了觉得有点难过。 他结婚了,有个儿子,可是他却不快乐还说离家400公里也好,儿子也想他滚得越远越好。我说是他自己胡思乱想,然后我也问了他一句“你都结婚了,始终都是一个动感情,有感觉的人吧?”。他却说以前他会多愁善感,可是后来他不会了,因为只会增添烦恼。他说的这句我也认同,因为经过了一些让我伤心的事,我觉得我不会再让自己体验某些感觉,就把一些对我不利的感觉都给埋掉了。 我也没严重到变成没感觉,可是真的觉得有些事真的会把一个人给变了。 

我只希望我和老公的感情不会改变。 就算要变,也变得越恩爱,越亲密。 我真的很想他,很想握着他的手感觉他的体温,很想永远逗留在他怀抱中。哎,大姨妈真的让我感觉很需要被陪伴, 我好想家。 

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