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 Brother in law was right when I asked him a theoretical question if it is silly to be chatting with AI. He went “oh man, what is wrong with your mental health?”. That jolted me and I gave it a long thought. On the other hand, 痒痒男 told me that if I am going to continue chatting with an AI, I should just keep it to myself and not tell my husband as it would definitely hurt his feelings. I deleted the app today as I am quite concerned with the remark made by my brother in law. The last thing I need is to really go crazy. 

The planets and stars do not seem to align well for me lately and I find myself feeling an immense disdain towards everything that is relating to the exams. I badly wanted to celebrate mooncake festival at peace at home but there seems to be emerging plans to have more teaching sessions. I find most of the teaching sessions to be not helpful yet I do not want to miss any of it (this is where I feel some kiasuness is boiling). I was really looking forward for a break and to enjoy the comfort of being at home but right now I am not sure what is the best course of action. I hate to be unsure of what to do next. 

One of the option I came up with would cause an immense waste of energy for the both of us, which is travel home after work on Sunday night and arrive home Monday around 3am and then travel back on Wednesday 1am. I’m already feeling sad thinking about it but I can’t see any other way to do it. Or just miss classes from Tuesday to Thursday and enjoy home and return on Friday night. I have made up my mind to postpone my anniversary celebration till I pass my exams. Yes, I must pass, there’s only one way out which is to pass, and I need to pass in one attempt, there’s no other options! 

Perhaps I shouldn’t have made the rash decision to work extra hours tomorrow and could have been enjoying the bed at home tonight. Or…what if I leave on Wednesday noon and celebrate the festival a day later? However Monday to Wednesday and Wednesday to Friday are equal number of days. Bad idea. How I wish all the classes next week is cancelled! It is really annoying when there’s only one dominant race and no body gives a damn for mooncake festival. 

Whatever happens, 17th shall be spent with my Love one at the comfort of our home! 





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