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Unwell

 It's a week now and I still haven't recovered from having a blocked nose along with some cough and the sense of feeling like I am having fever but I believe it is just my imagination. I am amazed with myself for being able to still function as usual despite being unwell. However I do not like the dreams I am making. Last night I dreamt that my phone was broken into pieces but it did not come apart, it just became like a clump of broken glass held with glue and the screen is still visible but the phone feels very fluid, imagine lots of glass pieces stuck to a mochi paste. It was so weird and on the screen image was my beloved Gunbound mobile game. Even my dreams are warning me to stop gaming I guess. I did not play any games today despite seeing my friends online and I told them, I am not playing this season but I will fight world boss and watch advertisements for the rewards. 

I had a calm evening today, I ate out at Nandos and the butterfly chicken was so small I think I could have two of it. Surprisingly I tried to use mind over matter sort of power and imagine that every bite is a large chunk of chicken meat and I ate slowly and eventually felt it was enough along with some peri-peri chips. However, I suspect the chicken was premature or malnourished. Tried some raspberry sherbet from Inside Scoop, a local ice-cream brand and I should say it taste good. I did some shopping and bought only 4 items, eggs, 2L of milk and a tub of Greek yogurt and it cost me almost MYR 60. I wonder how the low income group survive inflation as I feel quite injured with the prices. So, stepping out of the house is a bad idea as I spent MYR 100 approximately in total not inclusive of fuel and parking fees but whatever. 

Staying at home and not gaming today resulted in a different form of entertainment. I took breaks singing to karaoke on youtube. I think I memorized the lyrics to 我期待的不是雪 after singing along to it a few times. Quite a simple song to practice for future use if I ever go singing with friends again. So what did I achieve today without playing games? Did I achieve more? Well probably an extra 2 hours of reading and I think it is significant. In 30days that would be additional of 60 hours. 

Been listening to 欢沁 whole day to cheer myself up while I was in the room. The first time I listen to it was last month when a player posted his 23K hit on world boss at a single setting. I could just achieve 10K plus the most in one setting. Wonder when will I achieve a 20K hit. I saw something funny today which some may feel offended but I don't. It was about the mantra "om mani padme hum" and someone put the caption as "Oh money come back home". That is one of my favorite mantra and now that I found another meaning to it, it is even better! 

I shall treat myself with some high dose vitamins and I believe I will get well soon! Sigh, I forgot to purchase the one eyed man herbal drink (单眼佬). 

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