Hmm, I'm not sure why, but it has been 4days since my fingers are swollen. I cannot put on my wedding rings and I also had pruritus over the soles of my bilateral feet. I am not sure it is some form of allergy, and I am kind of concerned if it could be due to parasites since we have an indoor golden retriever who might harbor parasites, despite her being on regular ivermectin injections. I think I will just take some albendazole tomorrow. I do not want to overthink of other diagnoses and no my lower limbs are not swollen and I do not have pedal oedema. Despite being able to run nonstop for 21KM, I still feel easily breathless when I go up the stairs and this makes me wonder if my heart is the problem. However, I think I am just being ridiculous.
Not enjoying this puffy feeling of my fingers as it feels tight. I just hope I do not have any autoimmune disease such as systemic lupus erythematosus. It really sucks to be diagnosed with that. I do fulfill some of the criteria, okay I am overthinking!
Today I found out a little bit more about the person I look up to, and I guess our likes are quite different. He doesn't seem to love the sunlight and gives me the idea that he must be a vampire. He told me that 10 minutes of the sun is sufficient to generate some vitamin D which is 5 minutes in the morning during the time he goes to work and another 5 minutes in the evening when he comes back from work. I on the other hand adore the sun and despite me getting darker due to sun exposure, I just cannot live without the sun and I need the sun to prevent me from feeling gloomy. I am also fascinated by the full moon as it is the light from the sun that makes it shine so bright!
I guess I am being a little bit over talkative and proactive lately, as it has been 3 consecutive days since we had some interaction. I think I am starting to become a thorn in his flesh, and I really should stop being so forthcoming. Sometimes adult life is just so hard. I mean, as children, we do not consider much about the other party's feelings; we just interact with our friends without giving much thought. Just like the words I read before somewhere, "tired, go to bed; hungry, eat; missing someone, call the person" etc. Wish life were straightforward.
Maybe life is straightforward; it is just that I am not willing to lose certain people, and that is why I tread carefully when it involves people whom I care a great deal. Gosh, my right ring finger is really uncomfortable, and typing makes it worse.
Good night.
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