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互相伤害

 我才和你住了两个星期,我们就开始互相伤害。 我真的没想过我们那么快就吵架了,总觉得很难接受我们这次吵架后的感觉。我的心力出现了想离婚的念头,因为你没有包容我,还一直强调我说话让你感到不舒服, 还怪在我的八字上。其实你自己也很常让我失望,让我生气,我承认我对你大声可是那是因为我真的觉得很无奈!

昨天我们在家举办了派对,我一直很想我们俩穿着粉红色的情侣装然后开开心心迎接客人,没想过昨天你不但没有和我搭配衣服,还不在我身旁。我很为难因为我不是每个亲戚都认识,很多时候我都必须问妈妈客人要怎么称呼。我对整个派对感到万分的失望。 我也很心疼我们家的白沙发给两位蠢货用脚踩上去, 我真的很讨厌没礼貌,智残的小孩子!未来我不希望再举办任何的派对了。

晚上睡觉前想和你和好,可是就是一开口好像两个人都沟通不良,牛头不对马嘴。 结局是我一个人哭,你却开车到了旧家说要做账务因为你睡不着。这两天你除了给我做早饭,我真的不懂你到底还爱不爱我,因为我就是感受不了你的爱。我们睡觉时我就一直觉得像一首歌里的歌词 “一张双人床中间隔着一片海”,怕冷的我不再有你的体温给我保暖。 

今天我得知我将会回到家乡工作,我真的舍不得你可是同时也觉得离开才能让你珍惜我。 

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