I remembered I used to cry a lot about Icy, and I was very confused with my own actions and emotions. During that period, I needed someone to talk to, and I did not want to talk to anyone who knew me in real life so I just spoke to someone random in-game. He joined the clan and I used to want people to be active and donate clan points and make a lot of reminders for members to play world boss. It was also during that time that I cleared out some members to make way for new ones. I may have recall bias as I had a lot of sadness in me back then and when I am sad I cannot recall things properly. I just remember the guy was from Brazil and when he heard of my story he was mad at me as he said I was unfaithful to my husband and he left the clan and deleted me as friend. I was rather shocked with his response and at that time I was also sad as I realize no one will ever be compassionate enough to understand my feelings. Anyway that was more than 1 year plus ago. I think I stopped ...
我想人类是需要足够的睡眠， 过于操劳能让一个人所有的情绪给封闭起来，脑子里只想让自己“关机”。今天刚巧是个很忙的一天，忙得我真的没时间去思念任何人，也没时间胡思乱想。我记得我曾经说过为了避免自己难过，我若是隔天要离开情人/亲人，我刻意让自己睡眠不足。当我觉得我很困的时候，我就没机会伤心了，这个生活窍门我用了很多次也从未失败过。 我不能说我完全没有想他，因为今天工作所遇到的事我都很想和他分享。由于很忙这个想法只是瞬间经过我的大脑然后很快的又消失了。我可算是个认真的人，工作时我都不分心所以我真的想他了，要不然他是不会出现在我脑海里。其实我今天有和我老公说我想他了可是他没有回答我给他的简讯。1256，1637， 2327 这些是我发了简讯的时间可是一个答复都没有。想一想我真的是个孤单的人。虽然我很爱独处，但是我也喜欢有个和我三观一致的人和我分享生活。 我现在只希望今晚有机会睡觉因为昨晚我0200就醒来了。我没想他了，我只渴望睡觉。其实还有很多话想说但是我真的很困了。