Sweetie's World

Today I am really up for alcohol though I don't really know how to drink except for the tonic wine I take occasionally which does not even amount to a quarter of a cup. Anyway, I love the idea of getting drunk especially now cause I feel I am drown in a whirlpool of emotions and there's nothing better than some alcohol perhaps *wink Anyway here's a quote which I have seen in my uncle's house in year 2000 and since then I never once forget this quote. In fact, as soon as I am given allowance to drink all that I want which is probably when I get my own paycheck, I am going to make this quote my 3rd principle in life...1st and 2nd principle has to be something else more important than drinking *stick my tongue out. (so immature I know) "When we drink, we get drunk. When we get drunk, we fall asleep. When we fall asleep, we commit no sin. When we commit no sin, we go to heaven. Sooooo, let's all get drunk and go to heaven!" -- Brian O'Rourke Ahh~ I just l

I realise that no matter how angry I am, I usually will refrain from saying things which I don't mean to say. However, there are also times where there's too much of pent-up anger inside of me which causes a massive eruption and the consequence is almost fatal. Therefore, the topic which interest me lately is Anger Management. The truth is I just had some nasty squable with my little brother, yes, my little-rebellious-testosterone overdosed-teenage-brother. Gosh, am I mad ~ Anyway, I always think that words can do more damage than you can ever imagine and that's why you must always pick carefully what to say even if you are angry. I would like to be a person who is always calm and free from any anger. Besides, being angry does not do any good to your health at all *wink By the way, to release any pent-up anger (just to make sure I am really angry no more *giggles) I googled "anger management" and oh-my~ it was really helpful! next time you get angry, you might wan

Every cloud has a silver lining, The End has brought a new Beginning for me. Because... through The End, I have learn more about securing a new Beginning, through The End, I learn to see the reason behind every words spoken, through The End, I know that nothing can be judge by it's surface, through The End, I found myself to have grown into a matured young adult, through The End, I understand the predicament that he is facing, through The End, I am sure that my love is one of which is unconditional, through The End, I finally seeked what I have long been seeking for. And therefore, tell me how am I suppose to mourn for our ending?

When I was young, I love mixing words together and making them rhyme, it's part of my hobby and I can spend endless time scribbling away verses that rhymes. I even had a dream of publishing a whole book of poem someday. Sadly, I never discover the depths of my potential in creative writing 'cause I took this wonderful gift for granted. I do hope someday I still can write a decent poem like I used to *Smile* A part of me has gone For my poems have left me alone Every verse cutting our bond I’m falling fast to hit ground When my poems no longer rhymes I’m just another pitiful slime Gliding and slipping out of my dream Into a fit of sorrowful screams For words are sharper than the knife And my poem is my life So don’t you dare say I’m naïve Because my poem is my life! -2005-

This poem is dedicated to all the kids out there who are pressured by exams. The time has come again, for all to strife in pain, lost energy can't be regain, faces were pale and plain. Sleepless nights and candle lights, burning away all our might, just before the sky is bright, working endlessly through the dark night. From dusk till dawn, we seem to yawn, as lullabies weave a drowsy sound, threatening us to lie down. I'm sick of this insanity, the craziness I face, where is the humanity, as lost childhood I trace. Exam, tests, marks and grades, productiveness and winning, it is all that ever counts, whereas other stuff had no meaning. Give me back my life! A life that a child deserve. Take away the unwanted pressure, the tiredness I have preserved. -2005-

Dear Girl, Please understand that there are times where I want to be alone. I have always shown interest in you and just because I don’t show it, it doesn’t mean my feelings towards you are any different from the past. If I can let you see what’s inside my heart then you’d probably understand. It’s just so hard for me to open up my feelings and spill my heart out. Do understand that it's my nature to be quiet when I'm down. Besides, Things do change and people do change according to their environment. I just hope you could compromise that I can’t be loving all the time. Even so, it does not mean I don’t love you anymore. I am sorry for being cold towards you, I really didn’t mean to. Sometimes I feel like there’s some problem inside of me which I cannot resolved. That is the reason why I need to be alone sometimes. I never have the slightest thought of pushing you away. Sometime I do wonder should I just walk away. I don’t want to see the girl I love hurting and it feels like

Dear guy, I can no longer understand you. You are not the same. The time you showed interest in me is long-forgotten. When you are trying to get my attention, you treated me so sweet. You used words like “you are the only girl I love”, “you are the one I need, you are the one I’ll keep for all time”, “I love you”. It feels like everything’s a lie for me now. Now, you probably have got to your senses and decided you don’t love me that much. I feel rather frustrated how unfair you can be towards me. Sometimes it feels that the person which I thought you were did not exist. Before, my feelings came first; now, you hardly care about my feelings. When you are down, you just don’t bother to care for me. And it has become a routine for you to be down 24/7. You were never like this when I know you for the first 3 months plus. I think I should leave. I have always thought this love can live on. But, I’m wrong. I don’t want to feel hurt or cheated anymore. All the words of reassurance you gave m

What does it feel like to be inspired? I am seeking for some inspiration right now and I don't know where to find it. It's funny though that when I stop looking, I found out that everyone around me is actually an inspiration. Today, I met a little boy who have a special talent in moulding play dough into various shapes such as animals or robots and I had such a wonderful time looking at the little boy in action. I am inspired ^^

I realise I have change a lot in my thinking throughout my growing process as I found another treasure of mine - an essay written in January 2002 during my Malay lesson. Here's a traslation of the essay : Title : Imagine how your life would be when you hit 35 "Amy, where's my breakfast?" Where on earth is my maid? For the past 10 minutes I have been calling her to bring my breakfast for me. However, untill now she is no where to be seen. This is how my life is, having a big house, a luxurious car and a maid. I work as a fashion designer with a big reputation. Therefore, I am able to lead a luxurious lifestyle. In my house, there's only 2 people - my maid, Amy and I. So, the environment in my house is absolutely quiet except during the begining of every month as I will be holding a feast at my house whereby all my close friends are invited. I also have a boyfriend which I have known for 2 years. Although I am 35, I am still not ready to start a family. I like my li

What is Love... What is Love? Is it the feeling of contentment gain from the undying affection shown from the one and only special person? Or is it a virtual reality program taking you into a fantasy world full of sweet words that are only meant for fools? Or is it hatred which has been mutated and expressed in a different way killing you softly in the whole process? ~Charlene Chew 25th May 2005

" Trust is not something expected but something given" While brushing my teeth the other night, I was just thinking about "trust". I realise I trust people around me very easily and I do wonder is it a good thing or a bad thing. Anyway, that night I wasn't questioning myself about my trusting nature but I was actually visualising myself being interviewed and the interviewer asked me "How can you make sure people trust you?" I paused just a minute to think over the question and replied "trust is not something expected but something given" *smile*

"Love without knowledge and knowledge without love will not ensure a good life " - British Philosopher Maybe I was wrong about everything, am I going to continue this journey of misery? Mr.Adam is right, it is time for me to spend less time with my "special friend" I don't even know if I have a special friend

No one knows the feeling of being in love till they experience it. It's a wonder how magical it can be when two people in love could spend some time together. I am looking forward for another 2 hours of magic... remember our December 约定 *winks

"One will choose to love even though when one knows the outcome is unfruitful " - Tsubasa Chronicles I really thought he could show me the meaning of eternity but how can he show me when he is a stranger of eternity? Yet I believe, I believe that eternity awaits for me and him. Even so, today I have destroyed all possibilities, I have shattered all my dreams that I had with him; Today, I tearfully told him that this is The End. I have finally found the words which respresents my feelings towards him all these while...even now when everything have ended my feelings remains this way: 但愿不相思，可免相思苦，几经细思量，情愿相思苦

"You must remember this is a catalyst and not an inhibitor" - wise words by XOL We always hear the saying "a picture means a thousand words" but for me a few words means a thousand pictures. What makes me say so? Well it is simply because the interpretation of ones words is vast and it can have different meanings for diffirent individuals. The wise words above might not be significant for most people but for me it means a lot as it was these simple words that cheered me up and for that I really want to thank my good friend XOL. I will always remember that this is a catalyst, not an inhibitor *wink*

I love everything regarding love and I don't care if there's a scientific explanation to it cause Love is unexplainable! -CC- There was once a boy and a girl who were in love. no, rephrase that, who were deeply in love. They shared the common interest, they wanted to share some of the dreams they had and they even had lots of future plans which were meant to be accomplished together. Everything was perfect! Everything except one... They were miles apart. This unspeakable distance prevented their love from growing and like the autumn leaves, their love withers and fall silently onto the ground. If only there's true love why should their love withers? If only he did not read and believed in too many articles maybe it might work If only she was patient enough and did not rush things perhaps they will be together Why can't he use his insticts for once? Is it too hard to rely on your emotions some time? Why can't she learn to be more understanding? Is it too hard to list

Once upon-a-time... ...and they lived happily ever after The End I bet most of the fairy tales we hear during our childhood years sounded very similar if not exactly as the statement above. I have always wanted my life to be similar to those story where there's magic, love, eternal happiness and most important of all my very own prince! Please note that prince here refers to life-partner and it does not equal to the average "boyfriend". It's not like I'm going to be seen with a wedding ring and a veil over my head very soon but I do admit, I would really love to get married with my prince as fast as possible so that I can reach the part of the story where " they live happily ever after". However, I learn that in reality, nothing can be as flawless as in the tales which have been the basic foundation of my life. If life has no flaws, earth would have been known as heaven. Even so, life is still beautiful and I learn that for a marriage to

It’s been long since I wrote anything in my blog and the reason is because I’ ve been so busy with my life. Even so, I don’t see any outcome from all the things I have done as they seem to be meaningless. In school, I’m forced to take subjects which I do not wish to take and I also devote almost three quarter of my time on those useless subjects. I feel really irritated and I can’t describe the intensity of my irritation. Anyway, I can’t do a thing about it so I’ll don’t see why do I need to elaborate my frustrations. All I know is I’m waiting for the time to come when I can finally drop those ridiculous subjects. Right now, I have a question which I am not sure how to answer and this question used to just pass through my mind without having me to think over about it. However, the case is different now as a friend of mind took this question as a measurement to test my ability of making important decision. Before that, I want to review the question once again, here’s how it goes: Two p

Why do we need to sit for exams? I think exams marks the stages in life. My little brother once told me that he learned from a documentary on exams that human beings grow mature each time they sit for an exam. I find this statement to be controversial as sometimes I think exams make me feel more immatured especially if the results is not what I have expected. Even so, I do feel that exams mark the stages of human life. Thinking back the time where I was just 4years old, academic performance have always been part of my life. At my kindergarten, I often get a red star mark on my palm when I did something that pleases the teacher. My parents will smile with joy when they see my blue color report card is full of stars and not triangles or circles. (star is the best and triangle is the worst grade) During that time, I still enjoy studying as it was fun however I started to form a theory in my head that is "If I get stars, my parents will love me more; if I get triangles, they will not

Warmest Greetings to the readers of my blog ^^ This will be my first personal blog and I'm pretty excited about it! First of all let me tel you why I chose the name "sweetie" which I bet those who know me will feel that the name seems rather infamiliar as I have always been known as "Pikachew" instead of "Sweetie". The reason is actually very simple - "Sweetie" is a special name as it was given to me by someone equally special! I may not be sweet but who cares, I am sweetie! Today I feel really lost and I feel like I'm being embraced in a cloud of mist as I feel I'm getting quite messed up in my head which I could not decide whether it is because of lack of sleep or due to confusion of many things in my life. I am not suppose to be blogging right now as my SPM results is awaiting me at my school hall which is less than 300 meters away from where I am now. However, I just can't seem to fight earth's gravity to have the strength