Sweetie's World

Today I think of you a lot. No, it was since yesterday that I kept thinking of you, wondering how are you going to celebrate your birthday. I thought I could catch you online on the gaming platform to wish you but I somehow just don’t bump into you as frequent as it was before. I think this must be my prayers manifesting where we would be strangers. It is so hard to ignore the fact that I have once known you and shared a lot of moments with you even if they were virtual. Yes indeed they were all virtual but the emotions invested were all real. Come to think of it, perhaps we have formed so much of good impressions of each other that maybe if we do actually meet, we probably would be disappointed as what we think may not be the same in real life interactions.   I gather from your blog that you are very popular among the girls and you get a lot of “Love You’s” from them. I realised this for some time and I wonder is it because of your friendliness that made you well loved by everyone. At

I have finally settled down in my rented room. The moment I opened my room door I just felt so glad that I had thoroughly cleaned it before I left as it felt good to enter a squeaky clean room. The weather was also great, it was rainy and rather cold thus eliminating the need for me to adapt to my usually “hot as furnace” room. In fact I packed some cool fever with me thinking I may need to use some in case it’s warm. The room also felt much quiet since it’s rainy and those hooligans with their motorcycles probably are deterred by the rain. I have never liked motorcycles and the hate towards that horrible invention amplifies whenever I am in this poorly developed place where the youths here have nothing better to do than to have illegal bike race. Actually it is true the youth here have not much options. They don’t have a cinema or karaoke lounge and does not allow bars or sales of raffle tickets. The mall is rather small but that is where people hang out other than the beach which is

I once heard a story about a boy who badly wanted a certain item when he was a young boy however when he grew older and he was able to obtain the item with ease, it no longer holds the same value and meaning to him. Similarly in my current situation despite getting closer to my dreams, I am not very sure if I am actually happy or am I wanting the same things as I wanted a few years ago. The tricky part about life is that nothing is a constant and everything is changing yet we have no way of telling how our current decision or choice could impact our future wellbeing. I certainly feel those negative emotions closing in again whenever I have to be away from my charge station - my home. Somehow although I could control my emotions better and am able to eat despite not having an appetite, I still feel that twisting feeling in my gut with a sense of nausea. No, I have completely recovered from my recent stomach flu but this feeling of nausea is one that always occurs whenever I feel extreme

This post may contain spoilers.   It has been a long time since the last I watched Netflix and during my break I watched an animated movie called “Leo”. I would highly recommend this movie as it offers a lot of life lessons and is a family friendly movie. I was a little worried when it started with a lot of singing as I do not fancy musicals (it is a musical by the way) but I should say the lyrics are creative and some even rhymes. Out of all the lyrics I liked the song “don’t cry” the most. I think this could be my motivational song for the remaining one year as a student. (I can only pass and must pass in one attempt!) I find being away from home is just so hard and every time I visit home for a break I just wish I could stay at home forever.  If Leo (he is the main character in the movie) were to talk to me I probably think he would tell me to be less harsh to myself and to be patient. To be truthful the last 365 days have gone by so fast and although I did achieve a lot of the goal