Sweetie's World

I believe we are meant for each other. It is so magical that I cannot see other possibilities except the possibilities of being with you. Perhaps it's been long since we met but please be strong cause I still want to create more memories with you. I will hold on until you choose to let go. A chorus from a song I hear in you tube that could somehow correspond to my heartfelt emotions. 歌曲：为什么相爱的人不能在一起 歌手：郑源 专辑：我最火 "为什么相爱的人不能够在一起 偏偏换成了回忆 我带着你的照片 找到海角天边 希望你会再出现 为什么相爱的人不能够在一起 偏偏换成了回忆 我就算忘记时间也忘记你 也忘不了我们有过的甜蜜" But if letting you go is the best way to love you, I will try my best to let go. You only deserve the best of everything!

I feel very sad...okie probably not VERY sad but still I am upset and whining about it here may not help but I really need to let out my unhappiness! Did you know that I got a "Love Bite" on my neck!? It was done by some odd insect which I don't even personally know! The thing is I don't mind about the bite if it doesn't cause such an ugly mark and scar on my skin. It has been 5 days since I got bitten and it hasn't healed yet moreover my skin seem rough around that area. Nevermind that, my arm got some burn like marks and I don't know how it appear there as I don't recall hurting myself whatsoever. To date my legs have 4 insect bites which turn red and now black and my fingers today have 3 fresh insect bites (they are insane...even my finger they wanna bite!). Before this when I see some insects I will just sweep it away cause when I think that they might have their love ones too, I will feel inhuman to kill them. (Moreover religion wise its not good

Don't say you love me cause you can't keep up with it. Today you love me but tomorrow's a different story. I was naive to think you were the one for me. I was even stupid to tell you I am sorry, when the one who is hurting is actually me. Why did you ever gave me false promises which I adore? Why must you say you love me when all you do is walk out the door? Have I ever hurt someone to deserve this unconditional pain? Still the question haunts me as to what can love gain? Probably today the answer is clear... Love is just a game to rip one's heart apart, leeching your strength from the one you trust. The ironic part is : "I've told you what I thought, but I don't know whether you can accept it or not"

Perhaps not many people will understand what I am going to write but I know somehow somewhere some sweeties will understand this =) I will start my opening just as how i had it posted before ^^ 22April - 21may = 30 days 22may - 20june = 30 days 21june - 2 july = 12 days 72 days~~~ not even 100 days... yet we have known a little bit about one another become friends; gift one another surprises; shared our happiness divided our sorrows. I suppose this 72 days of my time have been wonderful...sincerely wonderful! This is indeed what's known as Fate (缘分) This poem is actually inspired by all of you, I'm sorry it sound this way...maybe it is not as bad as it sounds to be. I really am Happy to have known all of you *smile (untitled) when i had you i felt acceptance a sense of warmth by your appearance and there's no need to utter a single sentence for all i need is only your presence we have fight, we have squabble initiate one another to feel so troubled yet the bond we sh

I miss you, when you laugh, the twinkle in your eye, the shape of your silhouette against the moonlight, the way you concentrate when you drive, and tease me intentionally to make me smile I really miss you~~~~~ I like the time when we went out and it was raining you treated me like an ice cream afraid of me melting shunning me away from the water droplets falling and when I look up to see you I caught you smiling... Drowning in a pool of misery wondering how to change history to diminish my growing worry to seal you in my deepest memory Not having you means not having anything cause you are the one whom i can share everything its you i seek when the rays of dawn comes shinning don't you know that my heart is now shattering? When night comes the missing is unbearable cause its was always the time you are more available yet now even when the curtains of dusk falls I'm l

Tell me how can a person show me his love And then leave me like a flown away dove What's left are only memories of yesteryear As his closed heart denied him to hear Was I at fault or were he right To say that I was the root of the fight Yet this doesn't matter anymore Cause my heart is left bleeding and sore Tell me how can I possibly move on When endless memories awaits to haunt Reminding me of what might have been If only the future could be foreseen. Sigh away and cry a river The pain in my heart makes me shiver For I know it could never alter His final decision any further My strength, my friend, my love he was Only emptiness that lurks in me alas! Tell me how can a person show me his love And then leave me like a flown away dove...

Mother, you are my motivator guiding me through life's elevator just like my personal instructor you taught me never to surrender In times in need you are by my side your firm embrace is where i'll hide even though at times we do fight still you protect me with all your might since my arrival you never rested but often I let your patience be tested Even so you still shower me with love putting me first of everything above Okie, this poem is unfinished I think as time goes I'll have the inspiration to complete it =) Right now I just wanna enjoy the Durian Cake we (Papa, Bro, Me) ordered for our special Mama! HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to ALL MOTHERS!

Autumn's story shades of twilight grace the sky birds a flocking as trees cry shedding leaves in shades of gold carpeting mother nature's soul though everything seem to wilt there's a blanket of mysterious quilt covering my spirits in peace as I close my eyes with ease Reminiscing the events of last year today the time when you look at me and say Even when I'm gone I'll be with you till the end just like the wilted leaves nurturing the land ~~~~~~........~~~~~~........~~~~~~........~~~~~~~........ Autumn - resurrection of dreams Cool air with rustles of leaves South wind conjures a breeze blowing dreams with a sneeze I felt my mind was at ease cause in my mind's eye I see your brown eyes staring at me catching my breath in a wheeze weaving a miracle among the trees Then you caught my hand and I finally understand broken dreams can be mend as long as it is not the end though the skies may be gray it have a peaceful sway cause I believe that someday I'll still

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All the wasted years of not spending time with my brother seem to somehow end abruptly during this week. It had been a wonderful week spending quality time with him by talking about our lives and seeking advices from one another. We even got to like the game of "truth or dare" though we hardly ever picked dare cause we know how cunning the other may be. Before each game we make a pact to never reveal the secrets that we dug out from one another by agreeing that whoever reveals the secret he or she will get a face full of big pus filled pimples (Yuck!). Yeah, this is the sort of crazy things that you can do with your sibling or a close buddy and I enjoy every crazy moment of it. Being the devil among the two I love to pull pranks on my brother by jumping on him out of nowhere especially when he least likely expects me to appear. I had my fair share of "heart-attacks" too since my brother finally learn the art of creeping up behind people's back without being noti

Lovely soft baby feathers, tiny cute orange legs...It waddles here and there... And I fell in love with it! Yesterday, I got myself a little yellow duckling though I am informed it will trun white when it grows, and today, I am faced with the possibility that I might part with it cause it has been making a lot of noise. However, right now I am still trying to keep my little Mew by my side. Yeah, my little duckling's name is Mew and its a boy! Here's a snap shot of my lovely Mew! Now, how can you not call that adorable ^^ Mew loves to follow people around when I let it loose and its favorite place is in between human's legs...perhaps he think those legs belongs to his mother's (does that mean I have duck legs?!) The only drawback of having a duck is that you need to be really hardworking in changing it's water dish and also cleaning it's habitat as it loves to poo in every places it can poo ==" However looking at the bright side, I really gain a lot of exp

I wish I can be matured like the way you are. I feel silly sometimes when I try to view myself through your eyes. It's a wonder that you have been so patient with me all these while. At times, I find myself to be a great "bimbo" after voicing out all my opinions and worries cause you will come up with a magic solution which solves everything! Even though you are elder than me a little bit, I still feel that there's a big gap between us when it comes to maturity. I find myself childish at times and that makes me feel so annoyed with myself (*wince). Deep down in my heart, I wish I can be a matured young lady who can handle anything that is coming her way like an adult. I really need to work hard to take a step towards adulthood! Remember the endless times of me throwing a tantrum and crying my eye-balls out? That seem so unintelligent now. Somehow I am quite disappointed with myself whenever I cry cause it's like all my weakness is reflected via each drop of tear

This world is full of lies, every little alley of life is full of lies. Trust me, even what I am saying now can be a lie. So, who do you suppose you can trust when even those you trust give you nothing but trusting lies. Everyone is trying to convince me, to persuade me, to make me believe in their thoughts, their actions, their LIES. It is very tiring. I wish that I can get myself out from this web of lies. I can if I try to shut the world out and live in my world...but that would sound like I am lying to myself as there's no way people can shut the world around them and curl cozily into a world of their own. No man is an island okay! Will someone be truthful to me for once? I am still waiting for the truth. Cause deep in my heart I have uncertainties and doubts. I know that things are not quite right.

Sometimes it is good to be silent. Pythagoras said "Be silent if you can't say anything better than silence" And also, silence is appropriate when someone have had a pact of secrecy with you. I think most of the times we can't keep a secret is because we are too trusting. Mr.A will tell Mr.B not to tell anyone but since Mr.C is Mr.B's good buddy he tell Mr.C what Mr.A said not to tell ANYONE AT ALL. So, that's how a secret is leaked out as Mr.C might have a close buddy too and in the end, the secret will be publicly acknowledge and it's too late to do anything to cover up anything. Trust is not an easy thing to build between people and once you violate that trust, it might take a lot more time than you can ever imagine to rebuild it. It's a huge price to pay if you can't keep your mouth shut. I know, we would want to be trusted and gain trust from those we care...but how do you think others can trust you if you have a tendency to let a secret lea

I recall that we once had an argument and we were in a cold war, but you melted my heart with a song you sent me. It was entitled "wait for you". It was a very meaningful song and I have never hear it before. Today, miraculously, I heard the song on the radio. I don't usually listen to the radio but I was in the car heading to Kota Kinabalu and that song was playing on the car radio. It keep reminding me of you and I feel there's a lump in my throat to think back many-a-times we have some misunderstanding and it would always be alright...except for this time. I wonder will everything be alright again someday? am I losing you? Shall I say "I'll wait for you?" or should it be the other way round? All my plans for us...all my happy thoughts of us, seemed so far away now. I still wished that I could change the situation. I tried...but I failed. I tried to recreate lost times... should have known that somethings once lost is lost forever. If I had left it tha

Please don't start a cold war with me, it is the most unbearable thing for me if you do so. I realise some of the words I said was wrong, but even if I explain myself would you hear me out? The more I try to explain the more unclear it becomes and the more we will drown in a sea of misunderstandings. You are the only person that I can ever say is special and you have become a part of me. It feels so weird not to hear from you, not to hear your voice, not able to laugh at your funny ways and most of all not knowing how are you right now. Every time I do something, my mind will always be wondering, what are you doing right now? It tortures me not to be able to find out what you are currently doing. I was so positive you would call and talk with me but each time I look at my phone, it just shows the display which I have learned to get tired of. Since I am unable to share with you what I did lately, I think I will just share it with my blog. It's not the same though... Today I didn

I wanted to let you see all my secrets and that was a huge mistake. I confronted you on all of my problems and worries, trusting you without any hint of doubt. The problem have always been me, and I know you are tired of this routine. Just last night, you told me "I don't know what to say if you are always like this". Perhaps the reason you have put up with me is because you just want to challenge yourself. You just love challenges don't you? I love it too. Can I not be given a chance to change for the better? Don't you have any trust in what I say? Why must you deny my words and accuse me of being something I am trying to extract myself from? This is not the first time someone insist that I am "like that". I thought you were different. I thought you were my shelter, my friend...but you are just the same as everyone else. Thanks for hurting me again and bringing up a lot of my old wounded past. Don't try to be nice to me. Don't try to act as if y

No dates, no chocolates, no surprises... no Valentine... Unhappy? No Cause there's still Eros - The God of Love! A girl wishes badly for the guy she adores to ask her for a date and it never happened because she did not take charge of the situation and be courageous enough to ask him out for a date. A guy hopes that the girl he admires can understand that everyday is a valentine and not just today but that never happened cause the guy was too afraid to say "I Love You" to her as often as he wishes her to have good day. Love is given, not something expected. Love is shown, not something reserved. Happy Valentine's Day to You!

I never really understood the meaning of being "tagged", anyway, thanks to Bear Lo, I know what it means now, cause he tagged me on facebook. Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you. 1. I am a Chocoholic (I LOVE Chocolates!!!) 2. My distinct trait is my compassionate nature (Someone said so too =P) 3. I admit my mom has a younger soul than me (I think she have drank the potion of youth) 4. I love getting hugged by family members (Bear hugs from those you love warms the heart!) 5. I love sincere and sweet natured people (who doesn't?) *. I trust in the Law of Attraction (Rhonda Byrne Rocks!) 6. I feel my day is brighten when I see smiling faces around me ( put on a smile for me please) 7. I want a fairytale love life (Like romeo and juliet

I feel really happy today cause I get to meet up with some of my close friends. Friendship is really a beautiful thing when one knows how to value it. Though I hardly get to meet those who I feel close to, the bond is still there whenever we meet and chat over a cup of tea. I have laughed so much today and felt real good and joyful. I do believe I have unconsciously attracted many nice things in the process cause I not only get to taste lots of tropical fruits from my friend's farm, I also came back to a home filled with new lives. My dearest Brain (My brother's dogs name...I named it after inspector Gadget's doggy) gave birth to 5 healthy puppies! I also found out quite a lot about those who are close to me within these few days and is amazed to find out that my dad actually love the song "Apologize" and my mom is such an understanding lady (I never really see into this part of her until I really made my observation). My mom's tolerance towards the family is

Help me dear GOD cause I am rather confused now. Is medicine for me? I know I want to be a doctor but am I fit to take up this course? Is going to Singapore a major issue? (I am really going to miss all that's waiting for me there I know...) Can you please help me get admission to a good local university in Malaysia? I don't mind UM or USM or UKM. Please resolve this stinging sensation in my head cause I am really stress out for my next step. I promise to be good. I promise to be nice. Please just guide me for I need your advice. Ps. Thank you God for guiding me throughout my life. And I still need you GOD! Forever and Ever!

I can't think straight, I can just say I did a stupid mistake. I edited this lyric. I am sorry for all that I have done. ------------------------------------- "Anyone Of Us (Stupid Mistake)" -Original version by Gareth Gates- I've been letting you down, down boy I know I've been such a fool Giving in to my anger When I should've played it cool The situation got out of hand I hope you understand [Chorus] It can happen to.. Anyone of us, anyone you think of Anyone can fall Anyone can hurt someone they love Hearts will break 'Cause I made a stupid mistake It can happen to.. Anyone of us, say you will forgive me Anyone can fail Say you will believe me I can't take my heart will break 'Cause I made a stupid mistake A stupid mistake The contents were very hurting words thrown callously I should've known rage must have altered my senses 'cause I sent that mail to you The situation got out of hand I hope you understand [Chorus] A stupid mistake tha

"It's only words and words are all I have, to take your heart away..." -Bee Gees- Sadly, words are also the same thing that ripped your heart away. I am sorry for what I have done. How many apologies can I give you until you draw the line? I feel stupid. Really stupid. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Be Gentle On Your Loved Ones by allinspiration.com It's a great irony of life that while most of us are polite with colleagues, salespeople and strangers, we are often harsh and angry at our loved ones. It is almost as if we enjoy criticizing and venting our anger on them. What do we achieve by behaving this way? Nothing, really. In fact, angry tones and harsh criticisms put a damper on the intimacy of close relationships. We are robbing ourselves of the opportunity to feel close and be close to our loved ones. Even if, in the event of a disagreement, you are right, do you really need to push your point ac

Dedicated to all my beloved zany bridge players from viwawa. If ever your heart goes broken and you think that you don't have a heart then try spades. But if you figured out that you used the spade to burry your heart then you can forget about spades. So, does that mean its the end? Of course not! Without your heart, life just gets better because you can play no trumps! Yeah!! NT = No Trumps rocks! Thanks to you my lucky star!

Just a few days ago I was a bit upset with my parents and the way stuff is but after sorting them out I can definitely I say I am such a drama queen (*cringe in embarassment). I made such a big hoo-haa over such a teeny weeny thingy. Luckily I have a nice rational buddy to talk to or I will never grow out of that drama queen habit. *giggles. Family must be a very sacred and precious thing cause no matter how many squabbles you may have with them, you will still love them for who they are. It's impossible to even hate your family or resent them or being mad at them for a long time. I have always placed my family first above everything else in my life and I never regret doing so. I am just sorry that sometimes my immaturity made them look so bad in the eyes of others. I do feel it is so unfair that whenever a kid mess up, the parents will be the first target for everyone to blame. Don't you think it's rather unfair? Maybe in some case it is the parents fault but there's n

I need to learn communicating skills especially when speaking with my family. It seems like everything that comes out of my golden mouth is labled as "atom bomb" by my family's special radar. I used to think that they are the one that is paranoid and not open for any communications but perhaps I am wrong. I am not sure is it the tone of my voice or the way I construct my sentence or maybe I didn't choose a righ time to talk or...I just lack the skillful way of trying to get my words registered to their heads and not getting the response that I am actually trying to start a war. Therefore, from today onwards, I will try to change myself to adopt a good communication skills that before I knew it I will be the master of communication! A total professional! Yeah, I guess I am still not doing things right and immature in many ways not to mention that I am somehow selfish (awww...don't be too hard on yourself girl). Anyway, anyhow, I will have to try to improve to a bet

Lately, I encounter many obstacles in life. Among the biggest of them all is believing in myself and being confident in myself. I would really love to blame my parents if I could but I know that "man becomes what he think of" and I have only myself to blame. I don't want to write about negative stuff but I do feel very insulted by my parents especially my dad. "hopefully you can get a university placing, if you can't..." these are the words of my dad. Even my friends have faith that I can enter university and yet my own dad thinks otherwise. Am I really that bad? I feel very hurtful when my dad say things like this and it just makes me feel more and more inadequate. I have been stressing out about which university to go to and also endure so much of comments from relatives, friends and even outsiders. Each time people see me they must ask about my future plans and then I will have to listen to them giving me advices and comments and most of all I have to hea

Seriously, I never know I will miss you this much. It surprises me how I longed for you. I don't feel complete without you and I really wish you would open the doors to let me in. I need you. Can't wait to see you again even though I know there will be major changes in you. University, when oh when are you going to accept me? I really miss going to school! I know I'll be in university soon...I just have to be patient.