I still feel lost sometimes when I can't hear from you. I guess Gunbound Mobile (GBM) is the only consolation that I have for now but you reminded me before, that it may not last for long. If suddenly today GBM decided to shut down, I guess that would be the end of me having the chance to interact with you and this thought made me feel sad. Am I addicted to the dopamine surge I get whenever we play as a team? This could be a possibility and I am still trying to understand why I have an addiction to the concept of "us". My mind often generates a lot of scenarios where we are a couple and maybe because we have not seen the dark side of each other, it is hard to imagine us being unhappy with one another. Maybe our relationship was stunted at the "moon landing phase" because it only lasted for a few weeks and I had pulled back knowing that I should not proceed. So it stays there and it will always remain there - where both of us could only remember being deeply infa
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