Sweetie's World

Jesus often use parables to teach his disciples and today I feel like I am learning some lesson through the story of the cherry tree. Well to begin with it is not exactly a cherry tree but the locals here call it our local cherry. Other places call it by many types of names such as the straberry tree, the jam tree, kerson fruit, Singapore cherry or Jamaican cherry. I think it is so yummy that people would like to associate the tree to their country, I would call it the Malaysia cherry (just kidding). To be specific it is called Muntingia Calabura and it is unique as the mungtingiaceae family itself has 3 genera and each genus only have one species. I am fascinated by the plant because it has edible fruits that comes in the size of a boba and has many tiny seeds inside with a sweet pulp. I have learned online that the plant itself has many medicinal properties, for example the fruit is believed to relieve headaches, lower blood sugar, anti-ulcer, helps in abdominal cramps and many more.

It has been a fruitful 9 nights staying with my partner, I think this is the longest we have spent together since we got married. In fact it is the longest time we spend together since we know each other. I couldn’t help feel a little sad that we have to continue a long distance relationship due to circumstances. Sometimes I wish I could give up everything and just be with him. However I know that is the most non practical thing to do and it will bring more harm than good to our relationship. Unless I am able to maintain a steady source of income by other means, there is no reason so quit my current career. Besides I have already fallen into the career scam by taking the scholarship offered to me that comes with a 7 year bond. I used to think that it is good to have bonds since I will not need to worry about being jobless but I was so wrong. I wish back in school there were people teaching us on stuff like these in life and how our choices could lead to different outcomes. Had I not be

The first year of marriage is known as the paper anniversary. Just like a piece of paper, it represents a new start, potential for growth and at the same time fragility. Indeed the first year of marriage for me was full of challenges and from those experiences I did grow. The first challenge was living separately despite being legally bound. I used to be a girlfriend who doesn’t really make any effort to visit my boyfriend and only visits him opportunistically. Which means if I happened to have work related matters that is near to his place, I will then schedule a meet up and I never felt insecure or the need to always stay connected. I do have a sense of missing but I think I was able to deal with it in a healthy manner and besides I also had the notion that we are not legally bound thus I don’t feel responsible to stay connected. Marriage changed me and I am not sure is it a positive change as I became a little more clingy and needy. Somehow I felt like I only have this person for th

Have you ever watch porn? I think at some point of our lives we may have stumbled upon porn intentionally or unintentionally. I recalled when the internet was fairly new at my remote hometown, me and my brother both went to an internet cafe to surf the web where we accidentally went into an adult website. How did it happen? Well we wanted to go into Hotmail but instead of typing hotmail my brother had accidentally typed “hotmale” and the next moment the screen was filled with pictures of naked men and I freaked out and immediately click the close button and told my brother we will get into trouble for that. My brother was also in a state of shock and I did not let him touch the keyboard for the rest of the hour we were there. That was also a good example of why minors should not be allowed to surf the net without parental supervision. I think these days it is much easier as there are more options to ensure safety such as adding filters and having “kid mode”. Back then I am not sure why