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 今早我凌晨4点自然醒。不对。我是三点多被电话吵醒然后因为太口渴走去楼下喝杯水。正巧是凌晨4点,我看着手机我想起了你今天可能会去看日出。我发了个早安给你,你秒回了叫我快点去睡觉。知道你起床了我想你今天看太阳的机率应该很大。昨晚真的希望你能看因为你也走了140公里为了看看第一缕阳光。我知道你必须收拾东西才能到达看太阳的地方所以我也不和你多聊。再过两个多小时我看见你在群里发了一张很好看的日出,也在朋友圈发了一太阳升起来的视频,真好看呀!我感到开心你真的在国内的无尽头看了日出。 

    今天有点想和你保持距离,不是因为我不喜欢你,也不是因为你做了任何让我难过的事。我只是想念我们之间的一点距离和陌生。可能我也害怕我们没有话聊了, 像我和老公一样真的没有话好聊了。很多时候老公想和我说话只不过是问我有关医学的事,而我不是很愿意和他说那么多因为他问的都是别人的事。比如修车佬很常肺部细菌感染,要如何预防? 我觉得他这个问题问AI不是可以了吗?那个人问他自己的医生不是更好吗?可能他也很多时候有事才找我聊所以很自然的我不是很愿意分享我的专业知识。

以上是昨天的事, 我忙得沒时间继续写。 

今天老公出了小车祸,幸好他人没事。 他的钱包救了他,就是钱包撕破了但是他的脚没受伤只有手掌擦伤了。 我就是好多次不喜欢他用摩托车上班但是他觉得不需要堵车。 今天的车祸也是因为自己太赶时间加上路有点滑。我很庆幸他没事。 

他今天还是有联络我但是我觉得我少了一点期待。 我知道就算每天联络也不代表两个人的感情很好。 加上我还是记得他回复了别人的留言可是不回复我的留言。 所以我很清楚我在他心里并没有什么重要的地位。我只是喜欢对他好但是我真的不会在他的朋友圈留言了。 希望明天、后天、大后天我们都不要联络。 

晚安。

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