Sweetie's World

This year’s Christmas is peculiar but definitely better than last year. I could still feel the misery from last year when I recalled how I cancelled my trip to visit my husband in view of the bad weather and also news of a bus flipping over due to slippery roads just 3 days before my trip (it was the same bus company that I was planning to use). So last year I was all alone for Christmas and being in a place where wishing others “Merry Christmas” could be seen as an unacceptable action, I felt so disconnected and sad. To ensure the same thing do not recur, I set my mind to anyhow travel even if the weather is bad. Lucky for me, on the day I was travelling it was sunny and my trip was a pleasant one. I was greeted by my husband with food from McDonald’s as it is the only available food at 10pm and although it isn’t very healthy, I felt happy to know that he makes sure I don’t go hungry. We talked a lot on the way back home and planned our Christmas Eve dinner.   Since it is so hard for

In the blink of an eye, I have acclimatized to being a registrar for the last 6 weeks. The pros of being a registrar are that 70% of the time I am just giving out the plans and only 30% of the time I will need to execute the plans. So basically less writing, more listening, and more contact with actual specialists and consultants. I am technically a middle man and if anything goes wrong, I need to take the blame. Working with various people made me learn one thing - you need to encourage them even when they are really bad at their work because you still need them in the team and the last thing you would want is for them to feel discouraged. Somehow I felt a sense of accomplishment when I managed to transfer a skill down to my junior and perhaps I got a boost in my confidence too when they responded with gratitude. I am not a theory type of person so most of the time I do feel anxious if I teach the wrong things to others but in terms of practicality, I am clear on my decisions and acti

The rainy season seems to pass by too soon. I was anticipating a heavy downpour for the entire December but up to now I still didn't get the chance to wear my yellow boots or my raincoat to work. I enjoyed the rainy season so much as it makes my room chilly and I love sleeping with my blanket on. It is undeniable that there are a few downsides to the rain such as it affects my time being outdoors and the cold weather made some of the items in my room turn moldy due to the high humidity. Furthermore, if the gloomy weather is prolonged, it is very likely to make me a little sad. However this year I have not enjoyed the rain enough to be sad or maybe because I was sad for quite some time that gloomy weather seems to be a trivial thing. I also seem to develop a funny relationship with an unexpected roommate - the little frog. I noticed frogs had been coming into my room via the window and I could safely say there were at least 2 frogs but one of them stayed for some time as it often gi

I have always wanted to learn how to diversify my finances and I wish I had known about cryptocurrency earlier. I also need to constantly keep myself up to date or I will end up following the traditional footsteps of my parents where the goal is to work all my life and earn a modest living and be contented. As much as I love stability, that strategy will no longer work as my country's currency is getting worse with time. It is also worrisome that the country leaders are obviously picking sides with the recent ongoing war elsewhere. I think war is war and it is never good to encourage war by picking sides besides the ones who are suffering are the commoners. It really must be unlucky to be born into a country that is constantly at war. I try to imagine what would life be like in those countries and I shudder to think that their daily goal is to stay alive or maybe to die faster so as not to suffer? Anyway, I just hope my country can stay out of unnecessary trouble and reflect on how

Today, I woke up feeling like someone just used me as a punching bag the previous day. I felt my muscles pretty sore, which must be due to all the exercise I was not acclimatized to. I felt rather old to feel this way because I did not find the previous day's exercise so intense. I admit that some adrenaline rush during the event probably helped me perform better and gave me some extra energy. Speaking about the event I realize that most of the booths have games with one similarity - they want the participants to "like" and "follow" their Instagram page. It felt rather awkward for people like me as I do not have an Instagram account. So I just gave a polite smile, nodded, and left each of the booths. I am often peer-pressured to open up an account but despite all the persuasions, I  do not see a good reason to own an account. I would like to mention that I am trying to minimize my cyber footprint but that would sound hypocritical as writing a blog itself contrib

I  have never dreamt of attending a viper challenge given that the only exercise I do is mainly cardio and most of the time it’s just leisure jogging. Seeing that my partner signed up for it, I took the opportunity to attend the challenge as I think it is a way to improve our relationship by doing common fun activities. I was rather nervous seeing the leaflet showing mud covered shoes and I find it rather yucky to get dirty in the mud and I’m not very comfortable of getting my shoes wet during runs as it is a sure recipe for foot blisters later on. I told a friend regarding my concerns and he assured me that there is nothing to worry about as it is not as extreme as Ironman or Spartan challenge. My partner also kept reassuring me that his young niece could easily go through all the obstacles as they are meant to be for amateurs. Anyway I was still worried as I know I don’t have arm strength and I badly want to be able to go through all the obstacles since it was said to be “easy”.   My

Today I think of you a lot. No, it was since yesterday that I kept thinking of you, wondering how are you going to celebrate your birthday. I thought I could catch you online on the gaming platform to wish you but I somehow just don’t bump into you as frequent as it was before. I think this must be my prayers manifesting where we would be strangers. It is so hard to ignore the fact that I have once known you and shared a lot of moments with you even if they were virtual. Yes indeed they were all virtual but the emotions invested were all real. Come to think of it, perhaps we have formed so much of good impressions of each other that maybe if we do actually meet, we probably would be disappointed as what we think may not be the same in real life interactions.   I gather from your blog that you are very popular among the girls and you get a lot of “Love You’s” from them. I realised this for some time and I wonder is it because of your friendliness that made you well loved by everyone. At

I have finally settled down in my rented room. The moment I opened my room door I just felt so glad that I had thoroughly cleaned it before I left as it felt good to enter a squeaky clean room. The weather was also great, it was rainy and rather cold thus eliminating the need for me to adapt to my usually “hot as furnace” room. In fact I packed some cool fever with me thinking I may need to use some in case it’s warm. The room also felt much quiet since it’s rainy and those hooligans with their motorcycles probably are deterred by the rain. I have never liked motorcycles and the hate towards that horrible invention amplifies whenever I am in this poorly developed place where the youths here have nothing better to do than to have illegal bike race. Actually it is true the youth here have not much options. They don’t have a cinema or karaoke lounge and does not allow bars or sales of raffle tickets. The mall is rather small but that is where people hang out other than the beach which is

I once heard a story about a boy who badly wanted a certain item when he was a young boy however when he grew older and he was able to obtain the item with ease, it no longer holds the same value and meaning to him. Similarly in my current situation despite getting closer to my dreams, I am not very sure if I am actually happy or am I wanting the same things as I wanted a few years ago. The tricky part about life is that nothing is a constant and everything is changing yet we have no way of telling how our current decision or choice could impact our future wellbeing. I certainly feel those negative emotions closing in again whenever I have to be away from my charge station - my home. Somehow although I could control my emotions better and am able to eat despite not having an appetite, I still feel that twisting feeling in my gut with a sense of nausea. No, I have completely recovered from my recent stomach flu but this feeling of nausea is one that always occurs whenever I feel extreme

This post may contain spoilers.   It has been a long time since the last I watched Netflix and during my break I watched an animated movie called “Leo”. I would highly recommend this movie as it offers a lot of life lessons and is a family friendly movie. I was a little worried when it started with a lot of singing as I do not fancy musicals (it is a musical by the way) but I should say the lyrics are creative and some even rhymes. Out of all the lyrics I liked the song “don’t cry” the most. I think this could be my motivational song for the remaining one year as a student. (I can only pass and must pass in one attempt!) I find being away from home is just so hard and every time I visit home for a break I just wish I could stay at home forever.  If Leo (he is the main character in the movie) were to talk to me I probably think he would tell me to be less harsh to myself and to be patient. To be truthful the last 365 days have gone by so fast and although I did achieve a lot of the goal

Jesus often use parables to teach his disciples and today I feel like I am learning some lesson through the story of the cherry tree. Well to begin with it is not exactly a cherry tree but the locals here call it our local cherry. Other places call it by many types of names such as the straberry tree, the jam tree, kerson fruit, Singapore cherry or Jamaican cherry. I think it is so yummy that people would like to associate the tree to their country, I would call it the Malaysia cherry (just kidding). To be specific it is called Muntingia Calabura and it is unique as the mungtingiaceae family itself has 3 genera and each genus only have one species. I am fascinated by the plant because it has edible fruits that comes in the size of a boba and has many tiny seeds inside with a sweet pulp. I have learned online that the plant itself has many medicinal properties, for example the fruit is believed to relieve headaches, lower blood sugar, anti-ulcer, helps in abdominal cramps and many more.

It has been a fruitful 9 nights staying with my partner, I think this is the longest we have spent together since we got married. In fact it is the longest time we spend together since we know each other. I couldn’t help feel a little sad that we have to continue a long distance relationship due to circumstances. Sometimes I wish I could give up everything and just be with him. However I know that is the most non practical thing to do and it will bring more harm than good to our relationship. Unless I am able to maintain a steady source of income by other means, there is no reason so quit my current career. Besides I have already fallen into the career scam by taking the scholarship offered to me that comes with a 7 year bond. I used to think that it is good to have bonds since I will not need to worry about being jobless but I was so wrong. I wish back in school there were people teaching us on stuff like these in life and how our choices could lead to different outcomes. Had I not be

The first year of marriage is known as the paper anniversary. Just like a piece of paper, it represents a new start, potential for growth and at the same time fragility. Indeed the first year of marriage for me was full of challenges and from those experiences I did grow. The first challenge was living separately despite being legally bound. I used to be a girlfriend who doesn’t really make any effort to visit my boyfriend and only visits him opportunistically. Which means if I happened to have work related matters that is near to his place, I will then schedule a meet up and I never felt insecure or the need to always stay connected. I do have a sense of missing but I think I was able to deal with it in a healthy manner and besides I also had the notion that we are not legally bound thus I don’t feel responsible to stay connected. Marriage changed me and I am not sure is it a positive change as I became a little more clingy and needy. Somehow I felt like I only have this person for th

Have you ever watch porn? I think at some point of our lives we may have stumbled upon porn intentionally or unintentionally. I recalled when the internet was fairly new at my remote hometown, me and my brother both went to an internet cafe to surf the web where we accidentally went into an adult website. How did it happen? Well we wanted to go into Hotmail but instead of typing hotmail my brother had accidentally typed “hotmale” and the next moment the screen was filled with pictures of naked men and I freaked out and immediately click the close button and told my brother we will get into trouble for that. My brother was also in a state of shock and I did not let him touch the keyboard for the rest of the hour we were there. That was also a good example of why minors should not be allowed to surf the net without parental supervision. I think these days it is much easier as there are more options to ensure safety such as adding filters and having “kid mode”. Back then I am not sure why