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Cold War

Please don't start a cold war with me, it is the most unbearable thing for me if you do so.

I realise some of the words I said was wrong, but even if I explain myself would you hear me out? The more I try to explain the more unclear it becomes and the more we will drown in a sea of misunderstandings.

You are the only person that I can ever say is special and you have become a part of me. It feels so weird not to hear from you, not to hear your voice, not able to laugh at your funny ways and most of all not knowing how are you right now. Every time I do something, my mind will always be wondering, what are you doing right now? It tortures me not to be able to find out what you are currently doing. I was so positive you would call and talk with me but each time I look at my phone, it just shows the display which I have learned to get tired of.

Since I am unable to share with you what I did lately, I think I will just share it with my blog. It's not the same though...

Today I didn't want to wake up but I was afraid I will be left alone at home if I don't wake up, so I got dressed and went out to have breakfast with my family. After that me, my brother and my dad went to the temple，广济寺 to pray and we met a few friends there. I and my brother bought a T-shirt each as we plan to attend classes at the temple each Sunday or just go over to lend a hand in case they need some. I have signed up to help in some major event that will be held in end of May. Perhaps this way I will feel that I am using my life properly (*Laughs)

Then, we went to another temple, the one amongst the old shop lots in Keningau. It is the 大伯公 birthday today and there is a special celebration for this occasion. I had a great time being a witness of the celebration. I also followed them to walk among the shops and went under the lifted shrine though I am not sure what does it mean to do so. It was quite hot and I got even tired after I return home, so I decided to bath and take a nap.

After an hours worth of nap, I and my dad and brother went to another temple. this time is the 济公朝. My dad brought me there to witness 法主公 entering the man's body. I was kinda scared when the God came cause I wasn't accustom to seeing this sort of scene. My hands were kinda shaking when I let him examine them. It was a totally new experience! I am glad to have learn something new today. I also had fun chatting with a China lady. she have her dog with her and it is so beautiful! It isn't a wonder that the dogs name was actually 美丽!

Sigh...I definitely miss you lots. Nothing is quite the same without you. I hope it won't be long till we are able to speak again. I just hope that nothing changes and you will take off that idea of me being "that kind" of person. I want to say once again that I am happy for you. Wonder how did your outing yesterday went?

This is words spoken to me today which I felt is simple and meaningful :

平安就是福！

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