Tonight a brilliant pink moon decorates the sky, it was supposed to be a “strawberry” moon since it is said to be pink but with the naked eye it just looks extra orange to me. I badly wanted to view the moon a little longer but the clouds had better plans of engulfing the moon’s beauty and shielding her from my lustful eyes. Indeed I find the moon to be a very attractive celestial object with lots of mystery. I once heard the elders say that people with mental illness tends to get extra psychotic during the full moon, I’m not sure what is the basis of that. Other than that we usually do not purchase crabs during the full moon as the bright moon light causes crabs to have difficulty to feed on their prey and are thus skinnier and less meaty. Some biodynamic farmers also uses the moon to time their farming activities. It just so happens that my ruling planet is the moon and maybe that is why I feel rather fascinated by it. Lately someone have consulted me regarding their health and I w
I wish there will be a day that I can free myself from the prison that I create. A prison where I am the only prisoner and my turbulent thoughts are my tormentors. There are times where I feel I have overcome a lot of emotions but then there is this sudden surges of heartache that comes uninvited. “Sudden misses” was what he used to say and I do not think it is healthy for me to miss someone who will never have anything to do with me for the rest of my life. Seeing the “deleted account” on discord was rather disheartening and it felt like the left over chats without his nick name becomes meaningless. Did he despise me so much? The way he treated me and the people who he ever cared for was so different. He held on to the memories he had with others but with me, it’s like I never existed. Well, these are all my side of the story and assumptions and whatever he did, is his right, for his own good. I guess the tactic of drowning myself in work doesn’t block out the things I want to block a