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The Frog and I

The rainy season seems to pass by too soon. I was anticipating a heavy downpour for the entire December but up to now I still didn't get the chance to wear my yellow boots or my raincoat to work. I enjoyed the rainy season so much as it makes my room chilly and I love sleeping with my blanket on. It is undeniable that there are a few downsides to the rain such as it affects my time being outdoors and the cold weather made some of the items in my room turn moldy due to the high humidity. Furthermore, if the gloomy weather is prolonged, it is very likely to make me a little sad. However this year I have not enjoyed the rain enough to be sad or maybe because I was sad for quite some time that gloomy weather seems to be a trivial thing.

I also seem to develop a funny relationship with an unexpected roommate - the little frog. I noticed frogs had been coming into my room via the window and I could safely say there were at least 2 frogs but one of them stayed for some time as it often gives me mini surprises whenever I find it being in random places in my room like the bathroom/ the sink/ countertop/ on the floor. I used to go to the bathroom without my room lights on at night but ever since I know I had a visitor I made it a point to on my room lights whenever I woke up as the last thing I want is to step on that little fellow (that would be messy and will probably scar me for life). I am confident it is the same frog as I observed its pattern and sometimes when it is sandwiched between some items, the pattern looks like a snake. I tried to Google search and I think it is a gray tree frog however gray tree frogs are supposed to be huge and this little one is about 1-1.5 inches in size.  

It never occurred to me to chase it out of my room because I was afraid to approach it but at the same time, I knew it must be pretty scared of me. So every time I see the frog, I talk to it and it has become a routine for me to be on the lookout for its existence somewhere around my room. Master says if you happen to own a large house but do not have sufficient inhabitants, having pets can prevent the downside of not having sufficient inhabitants as the pets are living beings too. I feel my heart is lighter knowing that the frog probably is waiting for me to come home and I make sure there's some water around my sink as I wonder if it dries out since my room is quite hot. I also find myself getting braver as I dare to go a little bit closer to it and see its response. I even sprinkled some water on it thinking that it needed some moisture. 

Just as I was warming up to the frog, it somehow decided to leave me. It's been two days and I don't seem to see it anywhere. Gone are the little "heart attacks" whenever I spot the frog in random places and I no longer have a "pet" I can talk to. It was nice while it lasted and I hope it is doing well wherever it may be, I was even considering wearing some cloves and petting it but maybe it was a one-sided relationship. It probably was an illusion on my part and perhaps it was living in constant fear of being in my room daily and did not know how to escape. I left the window open all the time so that it can come and go as it pleases but since it did not return for more than 48 hours, I think it has left me for good. It is a weird sensation to feel as I thought I would be relieved but instead, I feel slightly down. 

Anyway, I asked the frogs for blessings too as the frog is a symbol of wealth and abundance. The lesson I learned from the frog is that it really only takes a short time to form a habit and constant exposure to your fears could actually make the fear more and more insignificant. Actually, it is scientifically proven and it is called "exposure therapy", though it was supposed to be done gradually. I think it is beautiful how subtle messages are being delivered to me from unseen forces. Writing it out here just prompts me to actually search for the meaning of being visited by frogs and I feel peaceful knowing that things will be well. Thank you froggy for visiting me, I hope I can see you again. 

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