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决定不想你

 明天我决定我不想你了,因为思念的感觉有点沉重。 我觉得我每一天期待的事也没发生,这种感觉是自己拿来让自己难受。 今天早上我醒来时第一瞬间就是想你,这也很不应该因为这样持续下去会让我产生错觉。 反正这一切是自己拿来的! 

今天最大的成就是把群里的大佬打赢了。 多亏蓬松的龙带我飞! 可是打完后我突然不想玩了,可能像蓬松的龙说赢那一局等于赢二十局。 另外我也开始有点内疚自己一直打游戏,忽略了学习。 

我有个学弟今天给我读了他写的文章,是有关金钱和我们为什么生活在一个缺乏的状态。 后来他也找我继续说说他的想法。 今天听了他的想法觉得读书和主动找答案是很重要, 也能预防自己变成被洗了脑的绵羊。 终结我们打工族就是被政府控制,是他们让钱的价值下跌、通货膨胀。 他们让我们用时间和生命付出可是没有给我们合理的工资。 今天赚的钱也无法为未来带来任何保障。 越想真的会有点郁闷。 

他总结说买比特币是一个好选择。 现在比特币那么贵而且我手上的也卖了, 我也不清楚自己下一步该怎么办。 明天就真的不想他了, 还有更多东西要我去思考和研究。 我的另一个学弟有点不应该,早早就和我说明天有个高难度的手术,而且我必须用 Video Assisted Fibreoptic Intubation (VAFI)的方式来插管。 病人又是十岁小孩… 我相当喜欢有挑战性的案子可是明天是周末,我不想那么忙。 算了吧, 还是要面对。 

明天我把所有专注放在值班上还有完成我的笔记。 

晚安。 

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