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 今天早上老公发了语音简讯给我,感觉老公的声音很温柔充满了爱,我听了感到心暖暖。我好想和他聊,可是打过去他没接电话。平时老公的电话提示声量都很高,他没接我的电话我有一点点不开心但是过后他发了个简讯和我说对不起。最近我有试着想,如果有一天老公不要我了还是他从我生命中消失了,我是否会难过? 我会这样想是因为我发现我平时没什么想他了,不像婚前每天都想。其实婚后因为他没有和我说实话变得我一直都无法像以前一样爱他。叫我放下,往前看是有点难因为我最不能接受被隐瞒。我为了不让我们的关系变差就少点想他因为有时候想多了就会难过。 

虽然如此,如果有一天他真的离开我,我还是会很不舍得他。可能是习惯他的存在,可能是因为还一直觉得除了他没有别的男人会那么爱我尊重我。我觉得他是个好男人可惜他就是隐瞒了我一次。就只有一次。还有一个星期多就能和他见面,我是很期待看到他可是每次见面感觉我们没有像以前那么热情了,感情真的会随着时间变淡。更何况我们没时间去经营我们的感情,所以变淡也不奇怪。 

老公,我今天值班的心有点累,可是我也不记得最后一次和你谈心事是什么时候。我越来越独立了,很多时候都完全不需要你。好想回到从前的我们。 

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