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The Letter

Dear guy,

I can no longer understand you.
You are not the same.
The time you showed interest in me is long-forgotten.
When you are trying to get my attention, you treated me so sweet.
You used words like “you are the only girl I love”, “you are the one I need, you are the one I’ll keep for all time”, “I love you”.
It feels like everything’s a lie for me now.
Now, you probably have got to your senses and decided you don’t love me that much.
I feel rather frustrated how unfair you can be towards me.
Sometimes it feels that the person which I thought you were did not exist.
Before, my feelings came first; now, you hardly care about my feelings.
When you are down, you just don’t bother to care for me.
And it has become a routine for you to be down 24/7.
You were never like this when I know you for the first 3 months plus.
I think I should leave.
I have always thought this love can live on.
But, I’m wrong.
I don’t want to feel hurt or cheated anymore.
All the words of reassurance you gave me seem insignificant now,
As I remembered, I remember that when I cry before you sent me home…
You asked about my fears and assured me that you will only love me.
You must have just gave me plain words without thinking,
Cause if you did think, then why must you always tell me about other girls at your school?
I don’t like to hear about them or the way their fashion senses out beat mine by a zillion.
Last time I was the main topic,
Now…I’m the last thing you would like to talk about with me.
I don’t want a relationship like this!
Everything started off so fine, it was just like how I had dream for but then out of a sudden it has turn into a nightmare for me.
You never even bother to wipe my tears now because you are too engrossed in your own sorrow.
You never even realize how many times you have trampled on my feelings and crushed my heart to pieces.
You never even take time to share with me about what’s on your mind…
I know you will never open up your heart to me.
So, why am I still standing at the door of your heart?
I know it sound so pathetic.
I will not try to find the key to your heart anymore because you have caused the key to my heart to be broken and now I have to take time to mend my key.
Don’t give me anymore excuses or tell me “I don’t know” anymore.
You have caused more damaged by saying “I don’t know”.
It shows your weakness, it shows your callousness, it shows everything that you are not.
Until you find yourself back, let us just go on separate ways now.
I’ll be waiting…
To feel treasured once again,
To feel cherished like before,
To feel carefree like I used to…or so as I thought I have…
But most of all,
I just want to feel that unconditional love I thought I felt.
Will I feel these again?
“I don’t know”


Love,
Girl

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