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Tears are precious

 Yesterday while playing 3 chance world boss, I noticed Icy was online playing too. I couldn't help notice as he was just below my rank after I completed world boss. I no longer feel the sense of heartache I used to feel, instead I find myself silly to have shed so much of tears and feel so much of pain previously. He was not worth it as he himself admit that he was bad on purpose as he was hurt before and would not want to get hurt anymore. I do not wish to become a collateral damage to other people's irresponsible management of their own emotions. However I realize I used too much of heart in my encounter with people in general. It is true I am a fickle character as I do dislike humans in general yet when I interact with one I will give my best and my heart goes along with it. 

Anyway since the encounter with Icy, I am very careful with how I interact with others be it in real life or in the game. Even so my fragile heart is shattered a little when Bubbles (the teacher I look up so much) doesn't seem to want to play with me anymore. He is forever tagging others in the group but never tagged me, which made me feel a little left out. I felt sad when one of the newcomers who evolved so much  that he favors him more than me. I know I have to be realistic and the only way I can play with Bubbles again is to make myself better in the game. I need to learn the art of war and upgrade my tanks, avatars, and pets. I am a little disappointed with myself for holding Bubbles so high up the pedestal. 

I am still waiting to have a chance to play with alluring Yunin and I wish we can win 3 matches consecutively. Since last month, after the 3 consecutive losses, we haven't gotten a chance to play together. I like befriending him and I like that he have a beautiful heart, at least that's how he portrays himself. I wish we really could play together this month and I promise myself no more putting too much of heart in human interactions cause my tears are precious! 

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