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我的救星

 感觉阿财短短的生命给了我好多教训，其中一个就是要珍惜身边所爱的事务。我一直以为她能活得比我久但是我错了。年轻并不代表能长命。我开始放下手机，开始多出门做点户外活动。也开始意识我上网所珍惜的网友并没当我一回事，是我自己觉得他们很重要。感情的投资我相信都是求回报的，因为单方面的投入只会消耗自己。我那天在大佬面前那么卑微，我也觉得很丢脸很不因该。我那时的想法就是不管我多卑微，我只想和他交朋友。可是后来他没有如朋友那样对待我， 他只想着自己的感受根本没考虑过我的感受。

阿财是我今世最乖巧的宠物，从来不给我添麻烦。可是我们不小心伤了她 - 那时她跑到我车底，爸爸努力把她拉出来，伤了她的脖， 我真的好难过。她病了两个星期才过世，这两个星期我们到底为了她做些什么呢？如果我早点给她取暖，早点给她抗生素，她还会活着吗？阿财死的样子就好像在沉睡，我摸摸她的头和鼻子，好想她给我一点反应。我还以为她在“冬眠” 试着摸摸她可爱的短腿，心里求着神明让她活着，可是也没反应。我还想着如果耶稣死了能复活，能不能让阿财也像耶稣一样复活呢？我真的不喜欢有关宗教的故事，都是骗人的。

我把支付宝里的小鸡取名为“阿财”，让阿财永远都在我记忆里。我也想，每天记得她但是我同时也放下让她去投胎。我发现我们一张合照都没有，但是没关系我还有她吃东西时的视频，她的眼睛充满灵性的看着我。想着她活着的那些时光都是美好的。因为她，我会更努力的珍惜一切，最需要珍惜的还是自己。

明年这个时候能不能亲自去体验桂花香？ 

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