Sweetie's World

 I often stray away from God because I am human, and as human, it is our nature to be lost in our own desires. Often, we only seek God or spiritual aid when we feel we are incapable of achieving our goals. I think I was my most spiritual self when I badly wanted to pass my examination and had prayed hard almost day and night for it. It is close to 10 months since I have passed and since then I have neglected those people who have been praying for me. I did not keep in touch, although my uncle still sends me daily good morning texts. I ignored the daily prayers my mom sent me because I feel I am at the point in my life where things are comfortable and static. However I dislike static, stable yes but what is the meaning of life if it is static?  My spiritual friend, yes I shall call him that. The person who reconnected with me from the game have deleted his account again as he would love to focus on living life and suggested I did the same. I definitely could not entirely stop g...

 最近和我崇拜的玩家玩游戏，是他先邀请我玩游戏。他就是鼎鼎大名的III。我问他取这个昵称有啥意思吗？他说是随便取的。昨天可能我太困了，在我们第一局的游戏就失误了很多，他就说“你这样玩我就不玩啦”。我看了这句就知道他开始生气了。因此我打完后就和他说“不玩了，拜拜，谢谢你”。他却以为我生气了。我一点都没生气，只是觉得没有信心了，也不想给自己太多的压力。想着想着我莫名其妙的哭了，觉得为什么自己每次玩游戏都被别人嫌弃。 今天早上他问我要不要玩，我其实想玩可是还是担心自己状态不佳所以只好拒绝了。这是我第二次为了游戏而哭，想起来是有点笨。或许我哭是因为想把负面情绪释放，哭完后就没事了。 蓬松的龙说我好笑怎么整天和脾气不好的人组队，明知会难过还和他们玩。我想我是不是时候充值打游戏呢？只要我充值肯定能有好的装备然后就可以单打了。谁叫我在乎赢率，有时想回到从前的我，只在乎娱乐不在乎胜率。能回到以前，我想打野就打野而不是像现在那么害怕打野被野人坑。  我该充值吗？ 对了，老师好像都不再微信我了不在和我分享生活的点点滴滴。感觉他渐渐的疏远了。