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又哭了

 最近和我崇拜的玩家玩游戏,是他先邀请我玩游戏。他就是鼎鼎大名的III。我问他取这个昵称有啥意思吗?他说是随便取的。昨天可能我太困了,在我们第一局的游戏就失误了很多,他就说“你这样玩我就不玩啦”。我看了这句就知道他开始生气了。因此我打完后就和他说“不玩了,拜拜,谢谢你”。他却以为我生气了。我一点都没生气,只是觉得没有信心了,也不想给自己太多的压力。想着想着我莫名其妙的哭了,觉得为什么自己每次玩游戏都被别人嫌弃。

今天早上他问我要不要玩,我其实想玩可是还是担心自己状态不佳所以只好拒绝了。这是我第二次为了游戏而哭,想起来是有点笨。或许我哭是因为想把负面情绪释放,哭完后就没事了。 蓬松的龙说我好笑怎么整天和脾气不好的人组队,明知会难过还和他们玩。我想我是不是时候充值打游戏呢?只要我充值肯定能有好的装备然后就可以单打了。谁叫我在乎赢率,有时想回到从前的我,只在乎娱乐不在乎胜率。能回到以前,我想打野就打野而不是像现在那么害怕打野被野人坑。 

我该充值吗?

对了,老师好像都不再微信我了不在和我分享生活的点点滴滴。感觉他渐渐的疏远了。 

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