I often stray away from God because I am human, and as human, it is our nature to be lost in our own desires. Often, we only seek God or spiritual aid when we feel we are incapable of achieving our goals. I think I was my most spiritual self when I badly wanted to pass my examination and had prayed hard almost day and night for it. It is close to 10 months since I have passed and since then I have neglected those people who have been praying for me. I did not keep in touch, although my uncle still sends me daily good morning texts. I ignored the daily prayers my mom sent me because I feel I am at the point in my life where things are comfortable and static. However I dislike static, stable yes but what is the meaning of life if it is static?
My spiritual friend, yes I shall call him that. The person who reconnected with me from the game have deleted his account again as he would love to focus on living life and suggested I did the same. I definitely could not entirely stop gaming but reducing my gaming time is something I have thought of doing as the guilt is eating me up knowing that since June, I have nothing going on in my life. Back to my spiritual friend, he suddenly asked if we could pray for each other. I was surprised with the request but I agreed and he told me that he particularly love the psalms 23. I do not know what's psalms 23 and Googled, and found out that it was the verse on the bookmark a nun gave me when I was 10years old at Sunday school. Maybe it is a famous verse but still it gives me goosebumps to experience such coincidence.
I forgot to post this and I wrote it halfway through during the start of the month. It is a good sign. I realize I blog a lot whenever I have matters of the heart. It is nice to know that I am less emotional and feel lesser these days.
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