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Timeless Pain

Have you ever feel so sorrowful because you are helpless in saving the one you love?
I am feeling a timeless pain in my heart for having failed to take good care of my possession of 12 years.

"He" was the one that accompanied me on special occasions in primary school time. Every time I go for competitions, go on stage, attend a party, "he" comes along with me.
"He" was my only comfort when I went to secondary school. Always by my side, guiding me, ensuring I can manage everything single handed though I believe I couldn't have done it without "him".

Even during exams, it was he who play a major role in all my endeavors. I don't know how to survive all those hurdles without "him". Even now...I am still dependent upon "him".
Though eventually I set my eyes on a different "person", yet I still love "him" as I cannot stop having "him" by my side even though the new "person" have become part of my life now.

I really feel insecure...I really am sorry.
If only I didn't rely on you too much, you might not have got hurt so badly.
If only I remembered not to expose you to danger, you will never be in the state you are now.
If only I treated you as how I treated my new acquaintance, you will still be whole.

I am sorry Dear Licorne Milano, I am sorry for taking you out with me when I went to exercise, I am sorry that your sapphire crystal glass fell off and I never notice until it is too late.
I really am sorry...

I just want to get you well fast, you are the closest to me as you were on my left wrist for 12 years...12 brilliant years!

No matter what, I don't care what it takes, I must heal you! I believe we can find a watch maker that can replace your sapphire glass for you.

Thank You for all the years! We will have more I promise =')

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