Have you ever been so busy that even sleep becomes a luxury and somehow sleep was the last thing on your mind and you just shut down when you couldn't go on anymore? It has been such a hectic 2 weeks that everything is now a blur. I forgot the days of the week and one of the day I forgot my online free Ba Zi class because I was so into editing the lyrics of Colors of the Wind to suit the video competition theme. In just two weeks I have completed a few major task and felt good about it. Sometimes desperate times brings out the talents in us and I am quite pleased with the lyrics I made which I will only disclose once the video have been sent in for the competition.
Written and viva exams is over and it was a good wake up call for me prior to the exams because I realize my knowledge is so shallow. Somehow when I was worried, 1111 kept appearing and it made me calm and reassured. After the exam I found that it was not as intimidating as I remembered perhaps because the examiners are internal examiners. Anyway from now on I will have a more positive outlook towards exams and I am also going to do all the necessary measures to enjoy exams such as starting early for my final exam preparation. I often think I have PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) from my Primary exams because I had neglected all aspects of my life for at least 350 days just so I can pass my exams in one attempt. I still remember the happiness of really passing it in one attempt but after that noticed I gained 15kgs. I am not sure how can I not notice the weight gain and was in denial back then. I recalled arguing with my parents when they commented on my plump figure and took it in a non constructive manner.
By the time I was aware of my weight the damages have set in as the stretch marks becomes more evident when I resume to my pre-exam weight. It is as if I have gone through pregnancy. It is such a horrible experience to grow fat and I promised myself I will never ever allow myself to grow fat anymore in this life. In the past 2 weeks due to the rainy weather I have missed a few workouts which make me slightly concerned but I try to be very active at work and hardly sit down and ensure I walk a lot to compensate for the lack of exercise. I am wondering how am I going to face the upcoming monsoon season as the opportunity to jog outdoors will be slim unless I want to jog under the rain. I am still lacking 600KM to finish the 1023km goal within this year. I am beginning to doubt if I can actually achieve it as there's only 3 months left to end the year. I will need to run a consistent 7km daily in order to complete the challenge.
Speaking of challenge, I impulsively registered myself for the viper challenge. It looks kind of fun and I have never been to such events. I often like to sign up for something out of my regular schedule so that it gives me something different to look forward to. It looks like I need to train my arm muscles more in order to be able to go through the 30 obstacles that are being placed throughout the 15KM distance, in order to attend the event and come back in one piece without any injuries, I think I need to start training my muscles and shop for the appropriate gears like maybe a pair of gloves that people wear for sports (does it have a specific name? I need to find out). I also pray there's no yucky obstacles involving water or mud like the ones I saw on their promotional video as I prefer something more cleaner and less messy. Now it does feel like I will be in for many surprises and I am so looking forward to it.
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