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“生气是拿别人的过错来惩罚自己”


今天丈夫依然和我说声早安,好像昨天什么都没发生过。我想这是我们“处理“问题的方式。也许是因为两个人都没时间和精力吵架所以最多就是”冷“了一瞬间。 我自己也很讨厌冷战, 也重来不喜欢对我爱的人冷战。有时我想我们在世界的时间已经很短了,万一突然走了,对方不是会很难过和后悔吗? 我不想让我的身边的人不好受,更不要浪费时间在负面的情绪里徘徊。虽然我有点不懂为什么有些人可以一时对我好一时就消失然后突然又出现。我不是你的玩具,如果你不想再浪费时间和我做朋友那就各走各的路。 我虽然对你有好感,也一直都关注你和随时都愿意聆听你的心事,可我也有我的自尊。你的一举一动只让我了解原来你所对我说过的都变成谎言。今天你突然来的一个简讯我也不再感到惊喜,反而我都不明白你为何发个毫无意思的简讯给我, 我也不想去猜测你的目的。 


我是一个幸运的人,就算我丈夫给不到我要的爱和关注,我自己可以更爱自己。我答应自己不要做个唠叨的妻子所以就算我看得到他的弱点, 我也让他自己去撞墙因为我很清楚就算好好的说他还是会给我很多理由很多借口。我也很开心他让我下定决心回家乡上班。 现在凡是有人问我接下来要到哪里上班,我就马上回答我要回沙巴!其实我是因该回去的,之前还没当医生之前我说过如果我顺利当医生,一定要为我自己家乡的人服务。 这样我也可以开始每天冥想我回家的生活,很快的我一定可以实现我这个梦想!我也要一直让自己记得,丈夫很没有责任感的让我受很多的委屈。世界上从来没有让我受委屈的是父母。我回去就能好好孝顺他们,带他们旅行,天天一起吃早餐和晚餐 - 多么幸福呀! 


大雨后的空气是特别的清新,就像我现在的心情一样。所以这次的”吵架“让我更确认我要的生活,我要的未来!


宝贝,我就让你过你喜欢的单身生活,别想我咯!


这首歌陪我入眠,晚安 ^^

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