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Food Overload

The universe is such that it loves to throw challenges whenever you are all set for a goal. It is only day 7 of intermittent fasting and today somehow everyone wants to give me food. I am aware of the food served at grand ward rounds and had packed some for me to enjoy later besides it is the food that all of us pre-paid for the entire year. Like usual it is mostly carbohydrates with some vege and a tiny piece of honey roasted chicken. The combination of all the condiments makes it into a dish called “nasi kerabu” (I don’t know what is the English name but it taste really good). So I was thinking my meal for today is settled and I no longer need to think on what to eat. However while lounging at the pantry sipping my sugarless Hojicha, my professor happily gave me his packed Arabian rice (“nasi Arab”) and told me he had eaten. I couldn’t deny that the food looks super appetising and thus I happily accepted. I guess he saw how happy I was with the food and proceed to give me a portion of fried macaroni. At this moment all I could do was look at my colleague who knows I am doing intermittent fasting and giggled. We proceed to discuss on how hard it is to diet at times when people around us are so caring and loves to share food. Shortly about 30 minutes the oncall registra asked me my whereabouts and I wondered why, only to receive a piece of sea salt brownie from her as there is a newly opened bakery. So now I have food that amounts to a full meal for a day! 


In view of the abundance of food, I ran a little faster today to “compensate” for all the calories that I am going to take. Surprisingly I was able to maintain a 5mins 45seconds per KM speed for 3 consecutive Kilometres I ran. It’s a shame the weather here is so hot and the transition to sunset is just too short, about 30 minutes and I did not have enough time to complete a 10KM run. Come to think of it, I have not completed any 10KM run for this year and it is already February! I probably could make it a goal for Saturday morning run, to run at least 10KM or more if the weather is good and I am able to push myself further. I also find myself to be unfit as I was unable to complete Igor’s plank challenge that I previously able to complete. When it comes to fitness consistency is really the key and doing exercise intermittently will not bring new breakthroughs. I felt like giving up today after running 4KM but someone with ash grey hair (I can’t see clearly because I removed my glasses) gave me thumbs up and so I continued to 6.5KM. I have also been neglecting my arm exercises and did not touch the small 2kg dumbbells I bought last year. My partner say he thinks girls with muscular limbs are hot and I would like to work hard to have muscular limbs! Not for him but for myself because I do agree having muscles is visually appealing. 


I randomly saw a post by a very influential and successful entrepreneur today. I have been following her since I was 15. First it was Friendster then Facebook until now and one of the post she shared today was “The right partner will not complete you. You are already whole. Instead they will extend you.” I think this is really meaningful and I think that was what my partner was doing all these whole, extending me, supporting me in my endeavours even though that means sacrificing a lot of things such as the ability to be by his side and play my role as a wife. He does not force me to do the things I do not wish to do and although I am willing to compromise, he will not use my unconditional love to his advantage. He is a man of actions and I just feel it more for the last few months. Every time we eat something nice, he will always give me the first bite or first taste. Every time we eat something complex with bones or shells, he will always remove them for me. It felt really relaxing to eat my food effortlessly (my family knows this and even younger brother will always peel off the flesh off the fish for me because since young I will not eat fish with bones). I am still not sure what can I do to contribute more in our relationship but I think making more money would be a wonderful thing because the man of the family generally often takes most of the burden when it comes to finances and I wish someday I could make him feel lighter in terms of finances. 


Today I felt so sleepy and did poorly on my single best answer practice. Second practice still gave me a score of 18/30 and the current one I scored 6/15 and stopped midway due to my sleepiness. Keeping a fresh mind is important in doing single best answers because almost all the answers are correct but to find the best answer is tricky and frustrating at times. Tomorrow I am finally going to do 2 percutaneous tracheostomy! I am quite hyped about it and am looking forward to go to work tomorrow. ^^ 

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