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Today I went to the library to help a friend from a different institution to obtain access to some articles. Usually most of the articles are easily unlocked by sci-hub but the articles that she requested could not be accessed even via my institution and I thought the library could help me obtain them instantly but to my disappointment it needs 2 working days. The library is always deserted and I wonder why do they need 2 working days for a supposedly simple task if they really had the means of getting the articles. Since I have walked all the way to the library and I finished my work very early, I decided to look through the books on the shelves on a random manner and a title caught my eye - “You are not so smart” by David McRaney. Usually I will not be drawn by a title that sounds judgmental but since it was kept under “psychology”, I was curious and decided to read the first few pages. Having read the introduction, I was interested especially after doing “The Wason Selection Task” and decided to borrow it. I had to restrain myself from reading beyond chapter 1 since I found a lot of intriguing explanations to human behaviour. It also made me question my own behaviour and thoughts just as how the author have predicted in the introduction itself. I plan to savour the book since I have 2 months before I have to return it back and I think I could use it as a form of reward since the reward system works well for me. It will be my entertainment between my academic readings. 


I reinstalled Facebook but it made me unhappy after seeing a lot of negative news in my country like people boycotting a franchise or movie censorship for anything LGBT (while I do not support LGBT, I am not against them either. I think as long as the LGBT community is not doing anything harmful to another human being, we should not bother them and let them love whoever they want to love) etc. I try to filter things I don’t want to see but then I would be doing a lot of filtering and in the end I decided it is really not for me. I do however enjoy some of the heart warming clips related to animals/ little children/ family. I especially love a clip which features a little boy with his ducklings and how he enjoyed the village lifestyle with his grandparents.I think he have an ideal childhood, the kind of childhood I had before with a lot of outdoor activities and learning survival skills like picking wild fruits. I remembered the friends I made played “cooking” (we call it masak-masak in our local Bahasa Malaysia language) with real fire made on firewood! I have lots of doubts with some of the things I do that is recommended by the “feng shui” class. One of the recommendation was to improve networking, on 26/3, 11am-1pm, face north and send messages or change profile photo or post a story using social media apps. I installed Facebook with the thought of updating my profile photo but somehow do I really need to network in that manner? The answer is no. I was indeed blindly following the recommendations then again master did not say “Facebook” and I myself had pick Facebook as I am not ready to change my WhatsApp profile photo which is a photo of our deceased Shihpoo called “candy” (it was my first WhatsApp photo and I have never changed it) . Hmm…or maybe I should change it? Master did mentioned it is not recommended to keep photos of those deceased on constant display. While the recommendations may be helpful and harmless, if it does not bring me peace then I think I should not do it.  


Good night~ soon I will be able to wake up as early as 5am and do yoga in the mornings. 

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