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When Stars Align

Just less than a week ago on 2/3/23 there was a phenomenon in the sky where Jupiter, Moon and Venus were in conjunction. It was also the birthday of a person I used to know, a person who have hurt me in the past but it doesn't matter anymore because it is in the past. I did not associate this date to that particular person anymore but somehow this date brought me a new found sadness. After reading more into horoscopes I made a discovery and it is rather ironic. 


People often say for things to work, you need the stars to be aligned as it is a symbol of luck or auspiciousness. Well, the stars did align that night although it was cloudy and I couldn't see it but I believe it is in alignment because stargazers worldwide were sharing photos of the magical scene online. I found out that my ruling planet Moon was actually in conjunction with his ruling planet Jupiter. Yes, our ruling stars were aligned that night unfortunately we were not. 


It really puzzles me that my believes are being challenged lately. Today's daily affirmation verse  was equally confusing -  "I will not let my thoughts control the way I feel". What does that suppose to mean? Right now if I choose to just feel I would be in a vortex of emotions. I am not sure if that is the best thing to do. I thought it was always mind over matter and not heart over matter.  If Tin Man was here right now, I would just give him my heart because he wanted a heart and as for me I don't think I need one. Besides although it is partially shattered, I think my heart is better than what wizard of Oz gave him - a silk and sawdust heart. 


Moral of the story, even when stars align, there are more powerful variables at play and things may not go the way we want it to be. As for daily affirmations, perhaps it is time to make my own affirmations to avoid over thinking. Oh, it's going to be tomorrow soon. Let's all have a good start! 


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