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可以坏一点吗?

 我可以坏一点吗? 可以为自己而活,不再做个乖乖女好吗? 今天和同事聊天就说到同事一个人去旅行, 另一个还花了5万到了南极洲, 看了企鹅。 重点是她们都是单身女孩一个人去旅游。我好羡慕她们能自由选择自己要去的地方,毫无约束的去做想做的事。我就算一直和父母说想自己一个人玩,他们都不让我去。 这样的生活好累呀! 

那天我误会了老师以为他不耐烦我每次在游戏里打招呼让他分心。 可能我很敏感,感觉他真的有点嫌我烦,也有可能我多想了。 反正我现在就是不敢和他打招呼了也感觉好像我们没有之前那么好, 才十天就感觉我们之间越来越疏远。 上一次我主动聊天是上个星期二,也感觉他没想和我聊就说了两句。在共同的游戏群里我们也没互动。 我想要维持的友情就这样渐渐疏远了吗? 

另外我最近和我最欣赏的玩家玩,他真有想法也敢带着装备差的我打游戏。 只是有点后悔我不小心透露了心事给他听, 也说了好多不该说的话, 就聊天两次说了一大堆东西。 现在想把话收回来也收不回来了。 非常后悔。 我也被其中一个玩家在微信拉黑因为他的老婆不开心。 这个玩家是他加我微信而且我们除了游戏的事其他事都没说。 我也无所谓的因为我了解有些人就是没安全感。 这样的女生我也不是没见过, 以前失去知己也是因为他的另一半对我没安全感。 我也不想打扰别人的生活所以只要遇到这样的情况我都会马上断绝关系。

可能老师最近恋爱了,毕竟他是个单身的男子,又是个好人,一定有很多异性会喜欢上的。 好啦,他不想和我来往我也只好回到陌生人的位置。 

晚安, 我不是个寂寞的人。 

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