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Familiarity

I think after doing so many exam practice questions, I found that the key to success is repetition. Keep doing past years and single best questions; eventually, there is a pattern to it. The only frustrating part is that as an adult I could not concentrate for long. My mind is everywhere, particularly I think I am suffering from some game addiction. Gunbound mobile had been a huge portion of my life since I passed my primary exams and I sort of have to play it daily to feel complete. I do mute group chats related to the game but curiosity got the better of me and I still scroll those chats which is time-consuming.

I know I have a very strong willpower and once I set my mind to something, nothing can convince me to change my mind. The only thing that has been unsuccessful for the past few months was my weight management, I gained 4kgs! I think 4kgs is sufficient to trigger me to regular exercise and after just 1 week of consistent exercise, I dropped 1kg which is probably due to water weight and thus should not be counted. My game friend is also on a weight lost journey and the videos he shared with me are so helpful. I am extremely sore from the exercise with squats and going up and down the stairs is so painful now. However this sort of pain is a nice form of pain, I don't mind it at all. 

Just another 8 weeks (my name)! I can do it, hang in there! I sacrificed precious family time to stay put at Kelantan just to study so I should study and not be spending time scrolling on messages or playing too many games. Do I need to take the drastic measure of deleting my game app? Nah, that would cost me 120gems from advertisements if I watch them daily for 2 months, not to mention end-of-season rewards. I really wonder how people with children or those female colleagues who are pregnant manage their time and well-being on top of studying. 

I wish right now I have a helper to do my laundry, cook, and help me watch advertisements on Gunbound daily. Oh also to do all those silly adult things like paying the bills on time (I missed my house payment on two occasions due to being busy). Indeed a lot of extra stuff in adult life is just there to distract and does not bring enjoyment or fulfilment. Now I understand why the rich always have personal assistance - to take over all this meaningless time-consuming stuffs so that they can focus on actual living.  

Okay, back to the grindstone. 

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