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内耗

今天我出乎预料又上台了，是为了拿奖。我拿了第一名。哎，想起昨天哭得唏哩哗啦的也觉得自己也太傻了！可是我真的很压力我真的很累我昨天真的很沮丧很崩溃。 我也很想老公能在我感到很脆弱的时候可以陪伴我，因为只有他说的话能让我平复心情。 我还是很依赖他虽然他要我做个独立的女人，可是我真的做不到。 

昨天真的不懂能再找谁来聊聊，一直掉泪睡不着觉。结果上网玩游戏就遇到网友，和他聊了我的事他就劝我不要内耗。其实“内耗”这个词我一点都不熟悉，可是认识了这个词，我觉得很适合去形容我。 我就是一个消耗了自己很多时间和情绪的人。本来我以为自己进步了可是最近的压力让我极速退步，让我天天怀疑自己的能力和智慧。 

我可以脱离这些负面的状态吗？考试要到了， 我不能再犯我昨天犯的错。今晚成绩揭晓前，我也一直认为我可能是第三名或拿了个安慰奖，哪知道我拿了第一名。我呀，要更爱自己，更相信自己！ 最重要的要相信天真的对我很好！

Thank You for all the Divine intervention!

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