May is going to end and before it ends I impulsively decided to surprise my parents by not mentioning to them that I am returning home for the long weekend. I have never dared to not tell them my whereabouts as it is habitual for me to inform them on all my travels and it is an unspoken rule that I should always inform them. I wouldn’t have done it without the support of my husband and brother. In fact my brother was skeptical and he thinks that I am asking for trouble and will probably get scolded by my parents. Well, I am anticipating to record their response later on when they finally get to meet me.
My initial plan was for my brother to take me home from the airport but he is not free and thus I have to take public transport to go home and this offloads my brother from the responsibility of being the “accomplice” and it made everything easier as I now have the perfect white lie. My partner was very supportive and he was the one who gave me the idea on how to surprise my parents once I arrived my hometown. I told my mom I’m oncall today so that she doesn’t expect me to call her and she will be less likely to call me (what a good way to use “oncall” as reason to be temporarily “unavailable”). I also drop her a text to complain on how busy my oncall is just before boarding and once I landed I will make up another story that “gosh I was in the radiology suite for the past 3 hours doing an emergency thrombectomy!” So that she doesn’t get suspicious if she try to call or text me and couldn’t get through. Anyway since her birthday is round the corner I told her two days ago that I have ordered her a surprise and the parcel will be sent via the bus services to my hometown approximately 1000-1030 tomorrow. I also told her since I made the orders, the person will inform me once the parcel arrived and I will call her to claim it. I hope she will be thrilled to find out that I am the “parcel”. Of course I have prepared some gifts for her and some R2E2 mangoes.
Since this is a first I am feeling so excited that I couldn’t sleep a wink at all on the plane despite being sleep deprived. I was thankful not to be seated with little children although the random appointment of my seat was a middle seat and I hate it very much but not much enough for me to spend extra money to select my seats. I thought I read before that the window seater gets the view, the aisle seater gets to move freely and the middle seater gets both the arm rest. Since i was already primed to believe this, I felt annoyed when the window seater placed his elbows on “my” arm rest. Maybe there should be a black and white rule book for this next time. Although the children are not seated near me, their cries are enough to make me half deaf and reminded me on why I do not want to have an offspring.
In the past I wasn’t very sure about not having offsprings but currently I am very sure of my shared decision with my partner and I wish both of us are infertile as it is really stressful trying to avoid pregancy since both of us agreed that we are not going to have procedures or medications which are safer ways to avoid pregnancy. We both also felt the one occasion I took the emergency pill it made a mess with my hormone and my judgement. There are so many people who are dying to be parents out there and if God could hear me out, I wish my fertility could be gifted to someone else who genuinely wants to have their own offspring. Sometimes I also wish I could menopause earlier but I know the consequence of early menopause has more cons than pros. Probably I can start researching natural food that contains estrogen and consume more of it during menopause. I must be so bored right now that my mind is just running freely. It is a good way to kill time while being mid-air without any internet connection.
The last words I told my partner and brother was “I Love You, I bought insuarance”. I think if I were to die because of a mishap, I really hope my Love ones can be compensated. At least that gives some value of being dead. Everytime I board a flight, I think about the worldly stuffs I have that have no proper nominee yet and it makes me feel uncomfortable if those things are not handed over to my Loved ones. My dad doesn’t believe in paying annual fees for the nomination service or having a will despite me and my brother advising him that it is the best thing to do to avoid a lot of trouble in the future, he seems very adamant and had also prevented me having a nominee or will. Perhaps it is time for me to do things on my own without his approval if a little sum could buy me peace. I usually unbuckle myself whenever the seat belt sign is off but this time after learning about the recent incident involving Singapore Airlines, I decided to keep my seat belt on all the time. I think those in aviation must be so pissed with the sensationalized reporing of loosing altitude which was actually a normal speed of descend.
Okay I landed at 1108, earlier than expected! Perfect! I’m going to have the best holiday ever before puting my nose to the grindstone when I return to work.
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