I was very much looking forward to witness the meteor shower but I somehow couldn’t see any. In a period of an hour, all I saw was 4 flying objects which are likely commercial planes as all I could see was the blinking red light that accompanies the white moving light. I don’t know should I regret for not opting to camp at the observatory that I was offered earlier to star gaze and hunt for some meteors.
I remember wasting a wish when I was 15 and saw a comet that flew by so quickly that I wonder if it was an illusion. I recalled wishing a person who played Gunbound with me could stay in touch again. Somehow this memory did not stick in my head for long maybe because that was the first time in my life I was “ghosted” (lol, I did not even know about this term before this). Anyway I think that person was a bad influence asking me to play Gunbound as he told me he could help me revise physics and I believed him and I even measured everything on screen with rulers and protractor. Okay so after years later that wish came true but maybe because of the impact of the unpleasantness of having someone dissapeared I somehow couldn’t remember him. He texted me since I did not change my phone number (I had cellphones since 13 since I stay away from home) but I genuinely couldn’t recall who he was. I kept asking him back if he was the one who has a lot of terapins as pets and he said no and in the end he gave up trying to jog my memories. It is very peculiar but after I changed my number to a luckier number I suddenly recalled who he was after a few years later but I think it was the best for me to have totaly forgotten about him at that point and that’s the end to it.
I went for a jog today and 3hours after my jog I feel nauseated and my head is throbbing in pain. I have hydrated myself a lot and I ate 2eggs, royal chives and some mint leaves for dinner which I think would not cause the symptoms I am having. Since the hot season I dislike taking deep breaths as I smell the air to be “burnt” and even the trees are bald and the grass are brown. Probably I had too much of screen time doing single best answers on my laptop followed by group discussion and I wore headphones during group discussion online. Gosh headaches are really horrible and I cannot imagine how could some people live with constant or recurrent headaches. It was because of this horrible headache I decided to get out of bed as I couldn’t sleep and I discovered how unsafe my workplace is.
Since light pollution is a problem, I thought I will just try to get to the highest spot of the building so that all the lights are below me and I could appreciate the sky better. I climbed all the stairs and I ended on the barricade free roof top. It was dark and quiet and cool and eerie for no reason. I had my amulet with me and I was thinking how could management not lock the doors to the rooftop? Furthermore it is in the same building as the psychiatry patients goes for their clinic follow up. Somehow being up there alone, I had terrible thoughts of some evil force pushing me to my death. Perhaps such thoughts would be absent if there was another human being who I am familiar with there. I stayed only for a few minutes and decided I had better hurry back down as I do not want to accidentally piss any “spirits” since I do have some believe in the world of the supernatural. However, I will definitely write an anonymous letter to the management to complain on the poor security and safety so as to prevent any unwanted incidents.
I wish my headache would go away and I could sleep soundly.
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